Sunday, May 07, 2017

no shit


Am learning more about myself, and it is a lot of fun. Haha. Cause it just makes it easier to let go of people with so much expectations. And forgiving oneself for having a differently working brain. Yeay!

Thank God!

Saturday, May 06, 2017

letting go


It sure was not easy
At least in the beginning.

Leaving your heart
At the hand of a stranger
Whom failed miserably
At seeing its beauty?
Definitely the act of
Reckless, not romantic.

It has taken place
And you learn to embrace

The wounds heal,
And regrets find forgiving.

You find a new you
After every mistake
And made a vow
In your defense,
Not to hurt
The same way again.

And that is okay
Cause you also found Love
That is true
Love that gets you through
Love that always awaits you.


Dear God,
Thank You for the lessons learnt, and thank You for sending me abundance of Mercy, and made ease what I thought would shatter me to pieces.
Thank You for showing me to be kind, and not to expect anything in return, and to be grateful, and to thank You by thanking others.
Now I ask to make ease, what is good for me, and the people around me, and the world in general. Make ease my wish to be a vessel of mercy, on my short stay in this world.

Thank you.


Tuesday, January 31, 2017



I hope
My intention is clear
So much that
It echoes
In every step
I make

So much that
Traces of it
Even when
I am no longer

So much that
It resonates
In recognition
With yours

So much that
If it were
I'd get
A warning

And then
I'd fix it again
That intention
I hold dear


My boss once asked, you are doing this for them, do they ever do it for you? And I just smiled. More than anything, I do it for me. There are so much in this world to be thankful about, and I pray hard, that I'd be that vehicle of mercy, and that, even if it was a small act, I have made your life a bit better, at least for that moment in time.


Friday, January 06, 2017

i thought of you


I thought of you
More so
Now that
You are leaving

I thought of words
Left unspoken
Then wrote them down
As a token

If hearts could talk
Can they recognise
One another,
Yours and mine?


Some people, are just so beautiful, that you cannot help but feed off their loveliness. I hope my knowing you, will be one of the many ways, to make this life, a good one to live in. Even if short.


Thursday, December 15, 2016



To think
You may not
Love me
After all 


A pain
Akin to
An angina

Allow me
To unthink
Such possibility

Even if
It is probable
I would still
Pray for you


I am in love with a person so wonderfully kind. At times I wished I was noticed but most of all, I wish you peace and happiness and that you be closer to God. I wish for you, a place in His Heavens. Besides prayers, I am just too scared to go to you. 

In love all the same, 

Sunday, October 16, 2016



Every time I try,
They get held back
My words.

They got stuck,
Somewhere between
My heart and my lips.

Or sometimes,
Tears welled
Then endlessly fell.


I met a cat today, it looked so much in pain.
I can see that it was weak.
And it is trying hard to keep up.
With whatever struggle it was in.
The cat treats did not seem to work.
Even as I offer them out of my hands.
I noticed then, it was ?crying.
And stroked the cat, hoping somehow, there was comfort in that.
I turned away to wash my hands.
And when I looked back, you were not there anymore.

We had a cat once, and the only time it disappeared, it left us forever.


I was brought to reminisce a mission I held dear, that is, to make a little good in the lives that I have met. I hope when I die, there are no bad thoughts of me. I hope when I die, people would pray for my well being in the Hereafter, when they think of me. I dare not ask for more, even if my heart longs for it.

I wished, I was loved in return

But that is too much,

Saturday, September 24, 2016

and if you love me


Hey you, thanks, 
For the thoughts
And the small gifts
Oh, you helped me out there
And I see that
You want to spend
More time with me?

If you love me
For goodnes sake

Then say the words


Sometimes, there is a thin line between hugging someone out of gratitude and punching them in the face for inflicting confusion. 

I wish I had the guts to ask, exactly where do we stand.
Cause you know, the punching in the face is something I'd consider trading a heartbreak with.

Not a gentlelady,