Most of all, what I prayed for, in that desperate time of realisation is, so that I recognise the feelings, and that I come to acknowledge it, and that I could cry if I need to, that I'm able to seek the right help if needed, and most of all, to come to terms and peace with it. 

Please don't make me do bad things because of it.

Please let me always give the benefit of doubt. 

Please help me cleanse myself of all the hurtful things I have done.

Please help me be a better person than I was before.