6 hari lagi ^^

Salam a ahoj people!
:) Happy Chinese New Year!!! Woot2!!! :D 
Hows the Mandarin orange and Ngan Yin peanuts going? 
I hear Ipoh traffic quite bad today (Saturday) 


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This week, must be one of those weird weeks. 


Cause the doctor commented, "You will be a gentle doctor" - she sounded sweet so, I think she meant it in a good way, but it was due to my failure to elicit proper response from a patient. 
(Me? ME? A gentle doctor? HAHAHA. Dalam hati, jawab, nah, I'm just scared I'll hurt them if I exert to much power. I'm very strong. Like seriously. Haha! *Obsessional thoughts of being Superman's twin sister*)
The reason I came out with (as an internal monologue) became invalid as everybody else managed to elicit response in our HYPERREFLEXIC patient. 
Hence, I concluded that I need more practice~ 



So one fine Friday morning, I went to the Zdravotnicke Potreby and asked about "reflexni kladivo" - buat vocab sendiri - and I got myself a reflex hammer.. OH YEAH!
With the needle to examine pyramidal signs. 
And these rubber strips to test sensation. 
Which made me so happy, and I had that smiling spasm on the way to class. :) :) :) :) :)


However, the patient we got was areflexia, or with very minimal reflex on her limbs but it went well, I think I did better this time. Alhamdulillah :)



Buat style Dr Linek ah next week. Wa chaaaa!


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Owh, and psychiatry exam is near. :) And so is neurology credits~


*tolong doakan kejayaan menimba ilmu dan lepas exam dengan cemerlang please. tysm! xx*
6 hari to go ;)

dear troubled soul

Song: Why by Rascal Flatts


Keep on fighting, life is worth fighting for. 
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We can't change the past but we definitely could work on the now, so that in the future, we can look to a better past 
Even if things go wrong along the way, there's no reason to stop striving
For we are loved by Him, and for He knows us best; always ask for His guidance, His forgiveness
#thankyouAllah 
And of course, you are loved, so really, don't be shy to ask others for help :P 


Ohkay people, lets terus bekerja ^^

one year closer

A year closer to the grave. :) 
*how we wished each other during birthdays in secondary school, seemingly dark, but actually a good reminder on how we've journeyed this world, preparing for the next* 
Good bye 2011, hello 2012. 


It's still January, so I'm not late, noooooo? Kekeke...
So before the resolutions and wishes list, I guess it's fair to scan through 2011. 

Those goals achieved~ Kyaaa~ *shining eyes*

Those goals left behind~ Kyaaa~ T_T

Those good habits developed :) :) :)

Those bad habits developed :( :( :(

Feelings felt and learnt :O 

Ja ne, I can't write in full since it's not a journal (What? I have a journal? Yes! I do! And this time around, I'm trying to keep it somewhere I know so I won't lose it again! Ha!) but, I realised that I put up too many goals for 2011 without prioritising and it ended up with "yang dikejar tak dapat, yang digendong beciciran" *baca dengan nada sedih* *tapi sebab dapat keluarkan peribahasa, bangga sekejap* Kekeke :P


So for 2012, the basis for resolution making is:
Have a list of things you wanna achieve according to specific fields (God, family, school, work, health, social) and prioritise on just one thing in every field. As in, in all circumstances, you must do all there is within your power to make sure you reach that goal. For example: daily recitation of the Quran, or killing bad habits such as giving white lies~ kyaaa~ 


As for the wish list, make sure it's reasonable.


Above all, lets keep our purpose right, and choose those of which will lead us to His blessings. 
Maybe the hardest habit to kill every year is submission to the nafsu :X 
May Allah protect us all this year. 


Honestly, there's just so many things to fix. Will I make it?
I don't know but lets keep on trying, we might die along the way, but at least we'll die trying. 
*baca dengan nada semangat ohkay, bukan nada depresi!"
Syahid atau kemenangan ;)

ha ha heaven help me~

I decided to NOT take the exam. 
Feeling feverish these few days. 
So I took some meds.
And sleep with the fan on. Must be some nasty virus to be so febrile. :O Naughty naughty microbs! 


Ejai read on echolalia and said it reminded her of me. 
Cause I echo people's speech. 
It comes out automatically, on the basis that I love language, so if I were to speak it, I'd like it to sound like the original. 
Only this kind of behavioural misconduct results me getting the STARE from those I mimicked. Kyaaa~ Sorry, I didn't mean to offend, and I'm trying to not be an echolalia. 


Echopraxia. I do that too, on the basis of wanting to know what others feel walking/running/etc like that, and the most memorable was the one in college. 
Me and a friend were walking back from buying dinner. And since it was nearing Maghrib, people were walking to Tangga Satu to the surau for prayers. Then I saw some random fellow walking awkwardly, so I started to imitate him. 
And after a while, my friend, who was walking behind me, called me. I turned back to see segerombolan budak-budak pergi surau pointing and laughing. 
The next thing I know, we were hiding at the nearest LH (lecture hall) out of embarrassement.  


I was who I was, then I took an arrow in the knee. Ha!





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I think I need practice before the real thing. 
At the rate my patient care is going, I don't think it's enough to make me a doctor in less than 2 years time! Kyaaa~


Balik rumah, lets play pretend like Nina! Only with real stethoscope and thermometer and sphygmomanometer(right~) and other clinical examinations. :D Woo hoo! 

monster

You don't want to imagine the monstrosity. 
Claiming to believe, with a hard heart. 
Kibr.


What have I become?

sexuology

Salam all :) 
Good morning! Ha!


The lesson yesterday kinda bothered me a lot. (I'm doing psychiatry now, and yesterday we spent the afternoon at the Sexuology department)
It's sad to know all these problems happening around the world.
Sexual orientation, sexual deviation, cheating husbands and wives, pornography bla bla bla. 


And sadder to think not many of us are safe from it. 
To keep quiet and pretend to be blind to the problems won't do.
Cause one day we'll have family and children and if we don't save ourselves from what the world has become (hideous by the day), our progeny would be ruined, and as they're our responsibilities, our Hereafter won't look pretty aite?


Heck, if I don't save my own family, that'll ruin us. 


Go on, spend half an hour on this :) 
I hope it'll give insight, the future is not bleak as it seems before. 
Allah has provided us answers, from Islam, the way of life. It's our task to find it.
Sometimes solutions are so simple compared to the problems. ;)

four sided wall

If I explode in a four sided wall
Eyes would turn to stare
All of me
Shall wilt and eventually crumble


I'd die cause I can't contain the explosive


And if I explode in a four sided wall
Will I too, hurt you?


Cause today you exploded
I hate it
Cause a developing ember
Got ignited
Right here *points to heart*


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*puts out fire with cold water* 
*err, now smokes emerges*


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Writing metaphors helps me be transparent enough so that I remember what happened and vague enough so that people can come out with their own story. Ha! 


And the explanation for above post goes like this:
"We've all got both LIGHT and DARK inside of us. What matters is the part we choose to act on, that's who we really are." Sirius Black


From popgoesthepatronus.tumblr.com and also Sarah for sharing on FB :) kekeke