hmmm

The post below, regarding the ape librarian was an attempt at clearing some thoughts. However, I feel that I need to make my blog posts more meaningful :P

I thank God to have surrounded me with good people, cause almost anywhere I am on the internet, I could click on motivating things.

And today is regarding waking up. Waking up together. Here's a Youtube link from an educator I admire, Brother Nouman Ali Khan, regarding the subject, waking up.

A reminder on getting back on track, and surrendering ourselves to the right thing.
Cause sometimes having faith is not enough, you need the right attitude as well.

Eep~
This year is about battling many things. I hope to be aware of where these all leads to. And I've been warned this journey may be the most challenging yet, so yeah, lets work hard. :)

With Allah's help, we'll manage.

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*below is the said blog post that needn't be read, cause to many, it doesn't make any sense whatsoever*

Oook Oook!

And she wonders how many would smirk at the remark.
The librarian lost a friend.
So the librarian buries itself in more books.
A book comforts the way a friend can not.

And to a banana, the librarian went: "Oook!"

Works every time!
Cause the thing about a banana is that, a banana, is not just a banana.
It kept the library at balance.

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93 miles

Weekend means calling home, and I managed just that.

Mama ask if the green-box-yet-to-be-named is in good condition, and thank God it is.

I dropped it together with my laptop at the airport when I was heading back to Prague. At some airport cafe. Abah put on the 'what in the world has my daughter done?' face and helped replaced my laptop bag unto a chair.

It was after I got my drink that I realised he also made the effort to tie my bag to the chair. That's family for you, he knows I tend to lose focus so he added preventive measures, in order that I won't repeat the mistake. T'was a small matter that meant big to me. Maybe cause when I was younger (tak nak mengaku tua. Haha), instead of a protective measure, I would be blamed and scolded for my clumsiness. Needless to say, I was thankful sebab kena marah itu serius tak best.

If they knew that I dropped the green box dekat JPA briefing jugak, it'd be so funny. Hahaha. I had to suppress the urge to tell Mama I did just that.

Anyway, exam is coming soon, that's why I'm writing again.

And this being the last year (insyaAllah) and all, random thoughts just pop out of no where in my head.

And an ironic random thought that keeps bugging me is how I feel like I'm in first year again. Excited. And a lil' anxious. I hope the anxiety would tone down, cause I think it's making me a lil' selfish these days. Yikes.

Now that the bottled up feel has been spilled, lets Magrib~ and teruskan berusaha.

*kalau tak susah, why would they wanna call this final year kan? Just do it yaw~*

bang bang, my baby shoot me

Salam all ^^

Guess what, I'm done with tropical med credit!!! Alhamdulillah~ I got to know I failed it yesterday and since yesterday was spent outside, I tayar pancit when I got back. T_T
Dr Stejskal gave us subjective questions (3 each) and it was manageable today. :) I was having tremors while writing the answer.

Anyway, today, a lesson learnt is: I gotta study the map. I'm not the type to travel, or the type to know so many places, I'd rather not venture, cause then, it'll add up to the number of places I yearn to go to, in times of needing tranquil. Or maybe, I'll just Google up the place if patient require vaccination/advises on trips. Muahaha. We'll see, Nora can turn into Dora the Explorer for the break. Doufam, ze muzu :P

Can't wait to head back. I heard that someone has started the bicycle regime. Hurray! Semangat nak sihatkan diri jugak camni~

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Out of my 5 years of study, maybe this is my earliest flight back home so far (not to mention winter break :P) cause this year, we got to catch up on life, to make up what we've missed before, together. Hee~


If things did not happen, we wouldn't be able to appreciate this moment. 


A happy child today, 
Nora


ps: title relates to photo. no, syamee is not my "baby", i used to hear this during one winter break, on eza's playlist. just that, the architecture in Czech is one worth a Charlie's Angels post. kekeke. Bang bang! 


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Bila bukak KFC Online on FB today, terlihat this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vubZNERGBac&feature=related
I hope every single thing leads me to You, for I am, as of now, very far. :'(

paranoia

It's sad how ONLY when things drive you to the edge that you become sincere.
How to remind oneself that if I screw this life, there won't be a second chance?

Things will work out with practice, kan?
And practice is with the aim that this heart holds true to the fact that, You're my only hope.

So far, the prep for Ramadhan is:
I shall have no compulsory Medical Posting in Ramadhan. Cause we did the clerkship already ^^ Lets try to go for the Subuh sermon as well, this time around. I hope they would discuss really good topics like they did last year but any topic will do I guess, seeing as how we all need the reminder.

To do next:
Ask Abah to bring us Raya shopping ASAP. 
Fill in the Habitator for Ramadhan and attain some goals (at least one please!)
Night cycling/BBing/badminton.
Prepare to be a better student and doctor.

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Why the blog is no longer private: cause I is now free!!!
Alhamdulillah, no more exams for fifth year! ^^
Though it scares me that I'll be having the license to kill in a year's time. Seems like this break calls for a round of intensive studying cause after some small talk over coffee with a senior, it seems like time would run out real fast. So fast that we wouldn't even have room to be depressed, etc.

(Need to stock up on really nice instant things. :D Owh yeah~ at least I'll end up as the Instant Queen this coming year of study)

I'm thinking about the necessity of a magazine for all of us. :) Or maybe just a photobook. One to glance through in future and say things like "charles university. yeah, we had oral exams" "we were once student" "gosh, we've done so much to get here" "i musn't give up, everyone is putting up a fight" "i was so thin back then" HAHAHA.

Anyway, although exam is over, I still have 2 things to be done with before being officially done for 5th year. Obs & Gyn rounds (can't wait to find out if I'll experience pre-syncope/syncope again - it's such an interesting field, but I don't have the guts -or rather, enough blood perfusion- to handle it. Kyaaa~ tak sabar actually, to go for rounds in Malaysia, cause I can at least understand the patients!)

And readers, please, do pray for all of us students around the world who are taking exams and risking our lives (with unhealthy nutrition and lifestyle, being psyched etc) to gain knowledge to serve people :). Since we are/were students, marilah bersama-sama mendoakan kejayaan satu sama lain. Prayers are the best weapon on this battlefield of uncertainty (papers, you write on them. oral exams, just scares the ****** out of you *exaggerating*)

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You know the things about saving up in other people's emotional account?
On how if you've a high enough reserve, then taking out some points wouldn't hurt the person that much (ie they'll pretty much forgive you?)
Well, I just though about how much we could hurt others if we make an overdraft.
That is, to begin with, there wasn't much saving in the emotional account.
And for whatever reason, you take the whole remaining chunk and some more. Which leaves you in quite a large debt by inflicting hurt on the person involved. And by hurting others, you would leave scars, which, like an overdraft, requires you to pay more than what you took out. ie forgiveness comes after a larger deposit than the withdrawal.

Maybe that's why some things aren't easily forgotten but really, we should learn to ease the burden on each other. By making small little deposits that evolves with time. Before its too late. Before you'd wish all those time you spent hating were spent loving instead.

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And I'm thankful to be able to write tonight. :)

it's not taking forever

Self hypnose, cause I feel like I'm spending a very long time studying this. Hah!
Man, still, I gotta learn ALL of these..or else I tak layak to become a qualified doctor.
Yes, lets start coffee diet now onwards. I think food is making me sleepy as well. The energy supply are all diverted to the GI. Kyaaa~

And actually, I find what K wrote quite uplifting. I guess the whole independent thing didn't quite get into our heads. So we chose to be distracted instead of being focus (at least that's what I did) then later put the blame on others when we run out of time etc.
The fault is indeed my own, but all I gotta do now is to fix whatever mess I made, kan?

Yes, I do not need THAT much sleep.
And reward will come after this all, that's a sunnatullah proven so many times in this life, aite?

Have faith and the right attitude yo!
You can do this! We all can :)
InsyaAllah~

panic attacks

It's that week again. The panic week. It's taking way longer than planned. Come tomorrow, that's the second time I'm postponing the exam. Kyaaaaa~

Need. To. Increase. Brain. And. Butt. Power.

Gotta keep my head in the game.
After this all, reward awaits!
Do it with Allah in mind and soul. The outcome would be marvelous!!!

And the extras:

Practical sessions in HKL tanpa exams.
Cycling, play badminton, play basketball, play soccer, play in the rain, go to pasar malam, go out makan with family, go out makan with friends, spend this year's Ramadhan at home, go to surau for the talks, supper, archery, bowling, drive, go meet cousins, balik kampung, meet KTT friends, Paris September, and a good body massage.

Storybooks, motivational books, juz amma.

Come on girl!!!
Use your head, heart, eyes, ears, hand for studying!!! Lillahitaala~

out of my library part two

There are times when you want to throw things and hopes the librarian agrees with your action.
(Oook! And a banana..do you get me?kekeke)

When will they learn that chit chatting and flirting should be done outside this holy cubicle of book reading?

Oh bladi oh blada~
*stuffs external meatus of the hearing apparatus with earphone*