obsgyn

Dearest Abah and Pmn Odin, 


From the first week of lesson, I have to say, I don't think I could handle Obstetrics and Gynaecology.
:( 
And I'm sorry to have to disappoint you people. 
Truth be told, I was hoping I have in my power, the ability to venture into that field.


Tapi,
1. I got really pale after watching some ultrasound procedures.
2. Watching videotaped deliveries made me feel all jelly-like, or really, I felt like a snowman melting on a chair. And my hands turned cold and clammy. And I felt nauseous. 
3. The more I watch, the more I was jellified.
4. My subconscious is stopping me from witnessing an abortion.


This is a preliminary decision though. There's still a week left this semester, 2 weeks during the summer break and prolly sometime in the sixth year and my whole HO life to decide. Haha. Pray I survive this week for now please. Tysm :)


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Paed ok tak? 
I can teach them kids to divert their thinking from being sick to jumping around :D Heee~ 


Orthopaedic paed? 
Decisions decisions~


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On a random note, how do you contain an overwhelming feeling?


This kind of curiosity is too much for the heart to handle. 
Yikes!

Being righteous is not wrong.


So I don't have to be sorry.


Blekkkk :P

when you care

When you truly care for someone, then you won't want them to harm themselves or be harmed.


Dear friend, whom I knew more of yesterday, may your sincere act of protecting her from harm be a token to get you to greater good. 


And girls, be careful when you go out. Especially if there're drunkards. Cause being a Malaysian, we have that friendly attitude, which blinds us from the cunning ways of men (women). :P


(This rant is regarding going out and having to utilise not so safe roads/alleys)  

i'm not dead yet

Salam readers (if there are any, seeing as how I have abandoned this blog for MONTHS!!!)
I seriously needed to put up a reminder for myself though, hence the post tonight.


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Most of the things in life are clearly define as right and wrong, if unsure, then it's our duty to seek the knowledge to differentiate them.
(By our way of life/religion)
There're reasons as to why we were told not to come close to some things.
Cause one thing leads to another. 
And when that one thing is bad, what it leads to is usually worse.
And when we don't have the power to stop it, the most probable thing we would end up with is a headache. 


I am responsible for my mistakes. 
I shouldn't blame others.
Lets not get involved with things against our principles anymore, eyh nenek? :)
There are so many other right, beautiful ways to do it.
Thank you Allah for the realisation.


Alhamdulillah to have given me good company whom I'm glad to know would be my comrades in my future career.
Alhamdulillah to have friends who truly care.
I pray that this bond would lead us all to His Jannah. 


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Fuh~ 
It's my second last year in Prague! I'm starting to miss it already~ T_T

I'm no longer holding office now, and truth be told, I'm anticipating on what challenges would lie ahead of me. :) True enough, life has been surprising. 
I hope these surprises would help me be a better person :) a better servant to the Lord. :)
Amen. 

potty

I wrote a letter to HP once.
And got a Popular (bookstore) voucher in return.


I talked about Quidditch for the personal presentation we had to do for SPM.
Pn N asked whether it is a practical sport.
And I naively answered, Yes. If you have a broomstick.


My first HP book was, however, the second one, The Chamber of Secrets. 
One of the outlet where my money goes (even now, but, on Discworld series :P) can be seen on the shelves. :) HEEE~


Tottenham Court Road. 
London.


Somehow, those long distance buses at home keep on reminding me of the Knight Bus (speed, not safety). 


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19 years later 


Memories are there to help us remember who we were.
Some bring sadness, some bring hope.
And most of them, brought us to be thankful, thankful that things turned out that way.
Cause for our simple minds to imagine another, why, we may end up being very wrong, very lost. 
We live in the Now because of memories. 
The Now of striving to those dreams of the greater good. (Mine spells ETERNITY)
And lets reach an end where we can assure that all is well. 

hope

Put hope on God.
He doesn't disappoint.


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There are things in this world, we do, so as not to hurt others. Heee.. that little panggilan untuk tak sakitkan hati (jantung) orang lain. Panggilan yang sungguh mencabar. 

Naik turun emotional bank account credit

Cause adding points to other people's emotional account may lead to higher hopes and expectation.
Which is scary cause if you've reached a certain limit, it feels very much like being in a pressure cooker. When the lid is open, semua wap-wap panas lagi merbahaya akan escape. Yikes. 
Keluarlah "who cares?" "ada aku kisah?" dan segala nenek moyang perlakuan yang tak terfikir akal untuk dilaksanakan. 
Walaupun tak buat perangai depan-depan, takut juga sebab kadang-kadang, terlintas kat hati (jantung) betapa penatnya nak menjaga hati (jantung) orang lain. 
Nauzubillah.


Tapi kalau kita dah add points into others' emotional bank, mungkin tak orang tu akan jadi lebih pemaaf atas kesilapan-kesilapan kita? "If you build a high reserve, you can take more withdrawals" Kekeke. Kenalah sendiri jadi pemaaf dulukan? Hoho. 


To hope that people won't make our life miserable if we do good to them.
To hope for something else in return of our kindness. 
Kyaaaaa~


Mungkin sebab tu, bila buat sesuatu, kena niat kerana Allah. 
If it makes people happy, then, satu point for you.
If it makes people happy, then you sakit jiwa, then one point later perhaps. iA.
If it makes both of you happy, all the better :) 


Do it for Allah's blessings, and be reminded of that "withdrawal" in afterlife, so that your own heart feels all happy and calm. insyaAllah. 


Kamon kamon! vi ken du dis! (read: we can do this!)

it's been 4 days

Ohkay, so the days have been somewhat less occupied than what I've imagined :P


Time to work out on a more strict schedule!


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:) I've lost some of my extra kilos. 
We went for a 15km cycle. 


Err... power cycling. 
I hope for a more flatter ground the next. I needn't build muscle tone. I have enough of those. 
I'm aiming fat burning. Kyaaaa~ 


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I want Taufiq's fixie, but I know that I won't be using it as much as he would. So, I shall be happy with whatever bike I end up riding. :D


Oh~ The big sister giving up on the prettier bike. Hahaha. 
Mungkin this is the result of my childhood ending. Sebab Harry Potter dah habis. HAHAHA :'(