Monday, December 19, 2011

ha ha heaven help me~

I decided to NOT take the exam. 
Feeling feverish these few days. 
So I took some meds.
And sleep with the fan on. Must be some nasty virus to be so febrile. :O Naughty naughty microbs! 

Ejai read on echolalia and said it reminded her of me. 
Cause I echo people's speech. 
It comes out automatically, on the basis that I love language, so if I were to speak it, I'd like it to sound like the original. 
Only this kind of behavioural misconduct results me getting the STARE from those I mimicked. Kyaaa~ Sorry, I didn't mean to offend, and I'm trying to not be an echolalia. 

Echopraxia. I do that too, on the basis of wanting to know what others feel walking/running/etc like that, and the most memorable was the one in college. 
Me and a friend were walking back from buying dinner. And since it was nearing Maghrib, people were walking to Tangga Satu to the surau for prayers. Then I saw some random fellow walking awkwardly, so I started to imitate him. 
And after a while, my friend, who was walking behind me, called me. I turned back to see segerombolan budak-budak pergi surau pointing and laughing. 
The next thing I know, we were hiding at the nearest LH (lecture hall) out of embarrassement.  

I was who I was, then I took an arrow in the knee. Ha!

I think I need practice before the real thing. 
At the rate my patient care is going, I don't think it's enough to make me a doctor in less than 2 years time! Kyaaa~

Balik rumah, lets play pretend like Nina! Only with real stethoscope and thermometer and sphygmomanometer(right~) and other clinical examinations. :D Woo hoo! 

Monday, December 12, 2011


You don't want to imagine the monstrosity. 
Claiming to believe, with a hard heart. 

What have I become?

Wednesday, December 07, 2011


Salam all :) 
Good morning! Ha!

The lesson yesterday kinda bothered me a lot. (I'm doing psychiatry now, and yesterday we spent the afternoon at the Sexuology department)
It's sad to know all these problems happening around the world.
Sexual orientation, sexual deviation, cheating husbands and wives, pornography bla bla bla. 

And sadder to think not many of us are safe from it. 
To keep quiet and pretend to be blind to the problems won't do.
Cause one day we'll have family and children and if we don't save ourselves from what the world has become (hideous by the day), our progeny would be ruined, and as they're our responsibilities, our Hereafter won't look pretty aite?

Heck, if I don't save my own family, that'll ruin us. 

Go on, spend half an hour on this :) 
I hope it'll give insight, the future is not bleak as it seems before. 
Allah has provided us answers, from Islam, the way of life. It's our task to find it.
Sometimes solutions are so simple compared to the problems. ;)

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

four sided wall

If I explode in a four sided wall
Eyes would turn to stare
All of me
Shall wilt and eventually crumble

I'd die cause I can't contain the explosive

And if I explode in a four sided wall
Will I too, hurt you?

Cause today you exploded
I hate it
Cause a developing ember
Got ignited
Right here *points to heart*


*puts out fire with cold water* 
*err, now smokes emerges*


Writing metaphors helps me be transparent enough so that I remember what happened and vague enough so that people can come out with their own story. Ha! 

And the explanation for above post goes like this:
"We've all got both LIGHT and DARK inside of us. What matters is the part we choose to act on, that's who we really are." Sirius Black

From and also Sarah for sharing on FB :) kekeke

i need

A genuine self-actualising session. 

I think I'm missing some important things. Yikes!

Monday, December 05, 2011

bebola daging

Salam :)

Today's post, food post!!! Woot2~
My taste sense was longing for something warm and filling and though I met a failed attempt last year, this time around, I managed to make MEATBALLS yang best! Kyaaaa~ #modebahagia 

Terima kasih to lovely Jamie Oliver Sensei for his meatball recipe. (Refer "to make your meatballs" part) From which, I replaced the crackers with breadcrumbs :D

Jom layan recipe for a while:

1. Sediakan bahan-bahan. Ground beef (about 300g), breadcrumbs, oregano, rosemary, salt, pepper, mustard (not in photo cause I forgot to bring it out of the fridge :P), 1 egg.

2. Place all ingredients in a bowl (tupperware :P) and mix well. And no, I didn't use the whole packet of rempah ratus. Sila isi secukup rasa. :D 

3. I added the breadcrumbs until the mixture was easy to shape. Don't put too much breadcrumbs cause it would end up BREADCRUMBballs if you did XD. This photo is before I half-cooked them (in a microwave)

4. Ja jjan! Selepas dimicrowavekan. 

5. Cook some into very simple soup with lotsa pepper! The rest can be kept refrigerated for future use.  

:) Simple aite? Okay everyone, jom buat meatballs secara berjemaah. Wee hoo~

Lesson learnt: Gagal sekali, bukanlah gagal selama-lamanya. #thankYouAllah
Next on the list to revive: Chocolate cheesecake. 

Thursday, December 01, 2011

:) see ya soon

Farewell. A sepet eyes farewell. :P It was 5 in the morning, I guess our palpebra muscles weren't so keen to keep the eyes large. (Or really, kitorang memang sepet sedikit.. Kekeke)

I was searching for photos to upload, of this lovely lady, Kak Liza, who has been giving us all insights on so many things in life ;) and found out that I have very little photos of her. :(
Alhamdulillah to have at least this little token of memory. :)

For being a sister, a friend, a wife-to-our-PPL-officer, tenaga pengajar, mother of Danish and Didi :) 
For hanging out with us, to have us around your house, for the stories, for listening to our stories, to invite us to welcome your first daughter, Danish's 5th birthday etc. 
Thank you, thank you.

Thank you Allah to have met you! 
Why must the good people goooo? :(
Sehingga berjumpa lagi! 

"Attachments make me strong
Farewells make me human"