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6 hari lagi ^^

2012-01-21T23:24:00.000+01:00

Salam a ahoj people!
:) Happy Chinese New Year!!! Woot2!!! :D
Hows the Mandarin orange and Ngan Yin peanuts going?
I hear Ipoh traffic quite bad today (Saturday)

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This week, must be one of those weird weeks.

Cause the doctor commented, "You will be a gentle doctor" - she sounded sweet so, I think she meant it in a good way, but it was due to my failure to elicit proper response from a patient.
(Me? ME? A gentle doctor? HAHAHA. Dalam hati, jawab, nah, I'm just scared I'll hurt them if I exert to much power. I'm very strong. Like seriously. Haha! *Obsessional thoughts of being Superman's twin sister*)
The reason I came out with (as an internal monologue) became invalid as everybody else managed to elicit response in our HYPERREFLEXIC patient.
Hence, I concluded that I need more practice~

So one fine Friday morning, I went to the Zdravotnicke Potreby and asked about "reflexni kladivo" - buat vocab sendiri - and I got myself a reflex hammer.. OH YEAH!
With the needle to examine pyramidal signs.
And these rubber strips to test sensation.
Which made me so happy, and I had that smiling spasm on the way to class. :) :) :) :) :)

However, the patient we got was areflexia, or with very minimal reflex on her limbs but it went well, I think I did better this time. Alhamdulillah :)

Buat style Dr Linek ah next week. Wa chaaaa!

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Owh, and psychiatry exam is near. :) And so is neurology credits~

*tolong doakan kejayaan menimba ilmu dan lepas exam dengan cemerlang please. tysm! xx*
6 hari to go ;)

dear troubled soul

2012-01-11T00:44:00.000+01:00

Song: Why by Rascal Flatts

Keep on fighting, life is worth fighting for.
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We can't change the past but we definitely could work on the now, so that in the future, we can look to a better past
Even if things go wrong along the way, there's no reason to stop striving
For we are loved by Him, and for He knows us best; always ask for His guidance, His forgiveness
#thankyouAllah
And of course, you are loved, so really, don't be shy to ask others for help :P

Ohkay people, lets terus bekerja ^^

one year closer

2012-01-05T01:28:00.002+01:00

A year closer to the grave. :)
*how we wished each other during birthdays in secondary school, seemingly dark, but actually a good reminder on how we've journeyed this world, preparing for the next*
Good bye 2011, hello 2012.

It's still January, so I'm not late, noooooo? Kekeke...
So before the resolutions and wishes list, I guess it's fair to scan through 2011.

Those goals achieved~ Kyaaa~ *shining eyes*

Those goals left behind~ Kyaaa~ T_T

Those good habits developed :) :) :)

Those bad habits developed :( :( :(

Feelings felt and learnt :O

Ja ne, I can't write in full since it's not a journal (What? I have a journal? Yes! I do! And this time around, I'm trying to keep it somewhere I know so I won't lose it again! Ha!) but, I realised that I put up too many goals for 2011 without prioritising and it ended up with "yang dikejar tak dapat, yang digendong beciciran" *baca dengan nada sedih* *tapi sebab dapat keluarkan peribahasa, bangga sekejap* Kekeke :P

So for 2012, the basis for resolution making is:
Have a list of things you wanna achieve according to specific fields (God, family, school, work, health, social) and prioritise on just one thing in every field. As in, in all circumstances, you must do all there is within your power to make sure you reach that goal. For example: daily recitation of the Quran, or killing bad habits such as giving white lies~ kyaaa~

As for the wish list, make sure it's reasonable.

Above all, lets keep our purpose right, and choose those of which will lead us to His blessings.
Maybe the hardest habit to kill every year is submission to the nafsu :X
May Allah protect us all this year.

Honestly, there's just so many things to fix. Will I make it?
I don't know but lets keep on trying, we might die along the way, but at least we'll die trying.
*baca dengan nada semangat ohkay, bukan nada depresi!"
Syahid atau kemenangan ;)

ha ha heaven help me~

2011-12-19T23:44:00.001+01:00

I decided to NOT take the exam.
Feeling feverish these few days.
So I took some meds.
And sleep with the fan on. Must be some nasty virus to be so febrile. :O Naughty naughty microbs!

Ejai read on echolalia and said it reminded her of me.
Cause I echo people's speech.
It comes out automatically, on the basis that I love language, so if I were to speak it, I'd like it to sound like the original.
Only this kind of behavioural misconduct results me getting the STARE from those I mimicked. Kyaaa~ Sorry, I didn't mean to offend, and I'm trying to not be an echolalia.

Echopraxia. I do that too, on the basis of wanting to know what others feel walking/running/etc like that, and the most memorable was the one in college.
Me and a friend were walking back from buying dinner. And since it was nearing Maghrib, people were walking to Tangga Satu to the surau for prayers. Then I saw some random fellow walking awkwardly, so I started to imitate him.
And after a while, my friend, who was walking behind me, called me. I turned back to see segerombolan budak-budak pergi surau pointing and laughing.
The next thing I know, we were hiding at the nearest LH (lecture hall) out of embarrassement.

I was who I was, then I took an arrow in the knee. Ha!

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I think I need practice before the real thing.
At the rate my patient care is going, I don't think it's enough to make me a doctor in less than 2 years time! Kyaaa~

Balik rumah, lets play pretend like Nina! Only with real stethoscope and thermometer and sphygmomanometer(right~) and other clinical examinations. :D Woo hoo!

monster

2011-12-12T00:22:00.000+01:00

You don't want to imagine the monstrosity.
Claiming to believe, with a hard heart.
Kibr.

What have I become?

sexuology

2011-12-07T01:18:00.000+01:00

Salam all :)
Good morning! Ha!

The lesson yesterday kinda bothered me a lot. (I'm doing psychiatry now, and yesterday we spent the afternoon at the Sexuology department)
It's sad to know all these problems happening around the world.
Sexual orientation, sexual deviation, cheating husbands and wives, pornography bla bla bla.

And sadder to think not many of us are safe from it.
To keep quiet and pretend to be blind to the problems won't do.
Cause one day we'll have family and children and if we don't save ourselves from what the world has become (hideous by the day), our progeny would be ruined, and as they're our responsibilities, our Hereafter won't look pretty aite?

Heck, if I don't save my own family, that'll ruin us.

Go on, spend half an hour on this :)
I hope it'll give insight, the future is not bleak as it seems before.
Allah has provided us answers, from Islam, the way of life. It's our task to find it.
Sometimes solutions are so simple compared to the problems. ;)

four sided wall

2011-12-06T22:10:00.000+01:00

If I explode in a four sided wall
Eyes would turn to stare
All of me
Shall wilt and eventually crumble

I'd die cause I can't contain the explosive

And if I explode in a four sided wall
Will I too, hurt you?

Cause today you exploded
I hate it
Cause a developing ember
Got ignited
Right here *points to heart*

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*puts out fire with cold water*
*err, now smokes emerges*

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Writing metaphors helps me be transparent enough so that I remember what happened and vague enough so that people can come out with their own story. Ha!

And the explanation for above post goes like this:
"We've all got both LIGHT and DARK inside of us. What matters is the part we choose to act on, that's who we really are." Sirius Black

From popgoesthepatronus.tumblr.com and also Sarah for sharing on FB :) kekeke

i need

2011-12-06T11:44:00.000+01:00

A genuine self-actualising session.

I think I'm missing some important things. Yikes!

bebola daging

2011-12-05T21:20:00.000+01:00

Salam :)

Today's post, food post!!! Woot2~
My taste sense was longing for something warm and filling and though I met a failed attempt last year, this time around, I managed to make MEATBALLS yang best! Kyaaaa~ #modebahagia

Terima kasih to lovely Jamie Oliver Sensei for his meatball recipe. (Refer "to make your meatballs" part) From which, I replaced the crackers with breadcrumbs :D

Jom layan recipe for a while:

1. Sediakan bahan-bahan. Ground beef (about 300g), breadcrumbs, oregano, rosemary, salt, pepper, mustard (not in photo cause I forgot to bring it out of the fridge :P), 1 egg.

2. Place all ingredients in a bowl (tupperware :P) and mix well. And no, I didn't use the whole packet of rempah ratus. Sila isi secukup rasa. :D

3. I added the breadcrumbs until the mixture was easy to shape. Don't put too much breadcrumbs cause it would end up BREADCRUMBballs if you did XD. This photo is before I half-cooked them (in a microwave)

4. Ja jjan! Selepas dimicrowavekan.

5. Cook some into very simple soup with lotsa pepper! The rest can be kept refrigerated for future use.

:) Simple aite? Okay everyone, jom buat meatballs secara berjemaah. Wee hoo~

Lesson learnt: Gagal sekali, bukanlah gagal selama-lamanya. #thankYouAllah
Next on the list to revive: Chocolate cheesecake.

:) see ya soon

2011-12-01T19:12:00.001+01:00

Farewell. A sepet eyes farewell. :P It was 5 in the morning, I guess our palpebra muscles weren't so keen to keep the eyes large. (Or really, kitorang memang sepet sedikit.. Kekeke)

I was searching for photos to upload, of this lovely lady, Kak Liza, who has been giving us all insights on so many things in life ;) and found out that I have very little photos of her. :(
Alhamdulillah to have at least this little token of memory. :)

For being a sister, a friend, a wife-to-our-PPL-officer, tenaga pengajar, mother of Danish and Didi :)
For hanging out with us, to have us around your house, for the stories, for listening to our stories, to invite us to welcome your first daughter, Danish's 5th birthday etc.
Thank you, thank you.

Thank you Allah to have met you!
Why must the good people goooo? :(
Sehingga berjumpa lagi!

"Attachments make me strong
Farewells make me human"

obsgyn

2011-11-20T21:38:00.000+01:00

Dearest Abah and Pmn Odin,

From the first week of lesson, I have to say, I don't think I could handle Obstetrics and Gynaecology.
:(
And I'm sorry to have to disappoint you people.
Truth be told, I was hoping I have in my power, the ability to venture into that field.

Tapi,
1. I got really pale after watching some ultrasound procedures.
2. Watching videotaped deliveries made me feel all jelly-like, or really, I felt like a snowman melting on a chair. And my hands turned cold and clammy. And I felt nauseous.
3. The more I watch, the more I was jellified.
4. My subconscious is stopping me from witnessing an abortion.

This is a preliminary decision though. There's still a week left this semester, 2 weeks during the summer break and prolly sometime in the sixth year and my whole HO life to decide. Haha. Pray I survive this week for now please. Tysm :)

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Paed ok tak?
I can teach them kids to divert their thinking from being sick to jumping around :D Heee~

Orthopaedic paed?
Decisions decisions~

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On a random note, how do you contain an overwhelming feeling?

This kind of curiosity is too much for the heart to handle.
Yikes!

2011-11-20T21:07:00.000+01:00

Being righteous is not wrong.

So I don't have to be sorry.

Blekkkk :P

when you care

2011-11-17T23:19:00.000+01:00

When you truly care for someone, then you won't want them to harm themselves or be harmed.

Dear friend, whom I knew more of yesterday, may your sincere act of protecting her from harm be a token to get you to greater good.

And girls, be careful when you go out. Especially if there're drunkards. Cause being a Malaysian, we have that friendly attitude, which blinds us from the cunning ways of men (women). :P

(This rant is regarding going out and having to utilise not so safe roads/alleys)

i'm not dead yet

2011-11-07T23:34:00.000+01:00

Salam readers (if there are any, seeing as how I have abandoned this blog for MONTHS!!!)
I seriously needed to put up a reminder for myself though, hence the post tonight.

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Most of the things in life are clearly define as right and wrong, if unsure, then it's our duty to seek the knowledge to differentiate them.
(By our way of life/religion)
There're reasons as to why we were told not to come close to some things.
Cause one thing leads to another.
And when that one thing is bad, what it leads to is usually worse.
And when we don't have the power to stop it, the most probable thing we would end up with is a headache.

I am responsible for my mistakes.
I shouldn't blame others.
Lets not get involved with things against our principles anymore, eyh nenek? :)
There are so many other right, beautiful ways to do it.
Thank you Allah for the realisation.

Alhamdulillah to have given me good company whom I'm glad to know would be my comrades in my future career.
Alhamdulillah to have friends who truly care.
I pray that this bond would lead us all to His Jannah.

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Fuh~
It's my second last year in Prague! I'm starting to miss it already~ T_T

I'm no longer holding office now, and truth be told, I'm anticipating on what challenges would lie ahead of me. :) True enough, life has been surprising.
I hope these surprises would help me be a better person :) a better servant to the Lord. :)
Amen.

potty

2011-07-29T16:00:00.000+02:00

I wrote a letter to HP once.
And got a Popular (bookstore) voucher in return.

I talked about Quidditch for the personal presentation we had to do for SPM.
Pn N asked whether it is a practical sport.
And I naively answered, Yes. If you have a broomstick.

My first HP book was, however, the second one, The Chamber of Secrets.
One of the outlet where my money goes (even now, but, on Discworld series :P) can be seen on the shelves. :) HEEE~

Tottenham Court Road.
London.

Somehow, those long distance buses at home keep on reminding me of the Knight Bus (speed, not safety).

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19 years later

Memories are there to help us remember who we were.
Some bring sadness, some bring hope.
And most of them, brought us to be thankful, thankful that things turned out that way.
Cause for our simple minds to imagine another, why, we may end up being very wrong, very lost.
We live in the Now because of memories.
The Now of striving to those dreams of the greater good. (Mine spells ETERNITY)
And lets reach an end where we can assure that all is well.

hope

2011-07-22T14:59:00.001+02:00

Put hope on God.
He doesn't disappoint.

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There are things in this world, we do, so as not to hurt others. Heee.. that little panggilan untuk tak sakitkan hati (jantung) orang lain. Panggilan yang sungguh mencabar.

Naik turun emotional bank account credit

Cause adding points to other people's emotional account may lead to higher hopes and expectation.
Which is scary cause if you've reached a certain limit, it feels very much like being in a pressure cooker. When the lid is open, semua wap-wap panas lagi merbahaya akan escape. Yikes.
Keluarlah "who cares?" "ada aku kisah?" dan segala nenek moyang perlakuan yang tak terfikir akal untuk dilaksanakan.
Walaupun tak buat perangai depan-depan, takut juga sebab kadang-kadang, terlintas kat hati (jantung) betapa penatnya nak menjaga hati (jantung) orang lain.
Nauzubillah.

Tapi kalau kita dah add points into others' emotional bank, mungkin tak orang tu akan jadi lebih pemaaf atas kesilapan-kesilapan kita? "If you build a high reserve, you can take more withdrawals" Kekeke. Kenalah sendiri jadi pemaaf dulukan? Hoho.

To hope that people won't make our life miserable if we do good to them.
To hope for something else in return of our kindness.
Kyaaaaa~

Mungkin sebab tu, bila buat sesuatu, kena niat kerana Allah.
If it makes people happy, then, satu point for you.
If it makes people happy, then you sakit jiwa, then one point later perhaps. iA.
If it makes both of you happy, all the better :)

Do it for Allah's blessings, and be reminded of that "withdrawal" in afterlife, so that your own heart feels all happy and calm. insyaAllah.

Kamon kamon! vi ken du dis! (read: we can do this!)

it's been 4 days

2011-07-14T14:47:00.000+02:00

Ohkay, so the days have been somewhat less occupied than what I've imagined :P

Time to work out on a more strict schedule!

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:) I've lost some of my extra kilos.
We went for a 15km cycle.

Err... power cycling.
I hope for a more flatter ground the next. I needn't build muscle tone. I have enough of those.
I'm aiming fat burning. Kyaaaa~

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I want Taufiq's fixie, but I know that I won't be using it as much as he would. So, I shall be happy with whatever bike I end up riding. :D

Oh~ The big sister giving up on the prettier bike. Hahaha.
Mungkin this is the result of my childhood ending. Sebab Harry Potter dah habis. HAHAHA :'(

confession of a longing soul

2011-06-28T21:28:00.000+02:00

I wanna go homeeeeeeeee T_T

I'm missing everyone.
Family.
Friends.
Everyone :'(

Ish2, sikit lagi... come on you! Teruskan berusahaaa!!!

i'm not stupid

2011-06-26T14:45:00.000+02:00

The Smooth Talker

The more we talk, the more room is given for others to make conclusions,
Especially those wise observant others.

The more lies you make,
The more you make a fool of yourself.

That admitting you're wrong and that you don't know,
Can, in some circumstances, be more trusting.

Really, to have made people believe,
In your definite utterance of rubbish,
Was an UGLY act.

If you're a doctor, and you don't know,
You may kill somebody.

Heck, if you're a lawyer, and you don't know,
You'd be the same.

*It's really a waste if we don't investigate truth cause we'd end up doing the wrong thing, choosing the wrong person, going the wrong path* May Allah protect us all from that.
I too fear that I haven't learnt enough.
EEP~
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Ramadhan

Anyway, Productive Muslim came up with awesome PDF for Ramadhan planning~
Woo hoo!!!
Hope to do something more this time around.
I'm afraid the last Ramadhan was not spent productively.
Huaaargghhhhh :'(

Tahun ni nak plan dengan Mamalah. Ok Mama?
Hehehehe...

Anyway, here's the link for the 30 days Ramadhan Taskinator.

Lets pray we'll get to enjoy this Ramadhan and make the most out of it yeah? InsyaAllah.
*I honestly am hoping it'll turn out better this time" huhu

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Pineapple Pockets

Yesterday Kak Liza and Syamira taught me one valuable lesson.
To cherish what moments we have had.
To be grateful enough to what has been given, so that anger won't enclose you.
Cause when it does, it gives very little room for forgiveness and too much room for hatred.

So often, the heart is clouded by a mistake, and then, all hell break lose, the tongue lashing hurtful words, the body signalling defiance.
We all need to envelop the heart with so much gratitude and warmth, and prolly, even fear of hurting one another. And to know, that there exist an exception when right could be wrong. i.e. Even how right you think you are, sometimes, it's better to stop and calm the storm.

Owh and one interesting thing I got to hear the first time is the importance of having some boundaries when it comes to being close to some people. Hehehe. :) Respect others, but don't let your privilege be taken away from you. Hehehe. This one is a lil' to private to be talked about in details, so I shall stop at that. :P Kekeke.
:)

Since we are unsure when to meet again, we had cappucino and this pineapple pocket - thinly slice pineapple which pockets mascarpone and strawberry, then garnished with strawberry jam - somewhere near the embassy. Yummilicious *Kak Liza's treat ^^* kekeke

Pineapple pockets remind me of Tom Riddle and Slughorn though XD

all about you

2011-06-22T23:36:00.001+02:00

Salam all :)
It's now the 22nd. Hee~ July doesn't seem too far right now ;)
Today I lepak-ed at Syamira and Pia's place :D to get a change of studying environment. And Alhamdulillah, we shared many things today.
And it's surprising how much we have in common and how our families differ so and it's intriguing how we come to the conclusion that all families have their individual strentghs and drawbacks.
And it's so funny to learn that really, most of what our parents taught us, some lesson are learnt way pass 20. Hehe. Alhamdulillah to have let us learn things before it's too late. :)
I gotta go memorise some more drugs now!
InsyaAllah I'll write more regarding this later :)
Annyeong, goodbye, adios! Hee~ Noc noc!

healthy food

2011-06-17T20:09:00.000+02:00

Aka drugs. NOT the abusive type eyh, the therapeutic one :P

Today I managed to open my bottle of Ubat Batuk Cap Ibu Dan Anak. And I'm so happyyyyyy ^^ Weeee~
The trick is to have enough desire to break the bottle at trying to unscrew the cap.
It didn't break but yeah, now my palm has memories of torsional force. Kekeke.

There's no ubat batuk that could calm my oropharynx like this one ^^
Alhamdulillah...

I'm officially sick now. T_T
Good thing it's the hols. :) I would have problem keeping my mouth shut and relaxing my larynx if otherwise.
Well, maybe I should slow down on the singing-for-fun-cause-husky-sore-throat-voice-is-the-best as well :P
That should help tonnes. Hopefully, InsyaAllah ;)

Me wanna get me dose of codeine now.
Nyam nyam~
Mari berusaha untuk sihat!
Seumdwa!

Today, I enjoyed reading, which is good, but I so gotta speed up. Anggare anggare arrriiiibaaaaa~

whatttttt

2011-06-13T15:49:00.000+02:00

It is June already!!! Kyaaaa~
Half of the year will be gone soon. Class ended last week and this week's schedule will be filled with lotsa drugs (an exam on that soon!) and visa handling. Hopefully it'll all turn out well, insyaAllah ^^

What happens in June every year is I get homesick. :P It's the time when those energy recharged from last year's summer break can't be supported with just phone calls and webcams. Well, increasing the frequency may help a little though. :)

School break also means spending more time at home than usual. Which means an extended access to the kitchen. :P It's interestingly funny and highly amusing to the gastrointestinal system as my housemates and I get more creative with the cooking. :)

The studying on the other hand goes up a notch. Prolly not as intensive as last year. Eeek~ I guess it's got to do with having chronic stress due to continuous exam. Whatever it is, study we must, cause it's a responsibility. One of those I shouldn't screw.
Okay, back to "mengikat ilmu" i.e. memorising.

Happy summer break and fighting for exams :) heee~
Salam wbt~

emosi

2011-05-31T19:03:00.000+02:00

So I ended up with doughnuts, due to lack of experience with egg tart. :) Maybe the egg tart will see it's debut later in the week. Thanks to my dear KTT friend, Linah for the recipe ^^

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Honestly, I'm totally grateful that I get to spend some personal time with some books now :) Top of list: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Family. I wonder why we don't have this version at home. Hmm... It took me almost a year to finish it. And I'm still not done with it yet! >.< It's so funny that when I was 13, I took less than a week to finish 7 Habits, patutlah so semangat time kecik2 :P

It's nearing the end of school year. 2 exams, in one month, insyaAllah, before home sweet Shah Alam! And Alhamdulillah, this year, though eventful, it is definitely enlightening. I would say the best part of it is to have realise some really deep infliction in me that needs healing and forgiveness. I'm still working on it and since the people involved are doing their utmost best to change, I should too. :)

I shouldn't hold on to grief. It kills the heart, slowly. Cause prejudice may lead to growth of a parasitic grudge. And when that happens, things get ugly. It inhibits survival, stability and success.
Some people get over things relatively fast, whilst some are stuck in that corner for what seems like forever.
Maybe the notion time would heal all wound is not really valid.
Maybe we need to forgive. :)
And then, it'll be easier to move on~ insyaAllah!

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If a child lives with criticism, he learns to condemn.

If a child lives with security, he learns to have faith in himself.

If a child lives with hostility, he learns to fight.

If a child lives with acceptance, he learns to love.

If a child lives with fear, he learns to be apprehensive.

If a child lives with recognition, he learns to have a goal.

If a child lives with pity, he learns to be sorry of himself.

If a child lives with approval, he learns to like himself.

If a child lives with jealousy, he learns to feel guilty.

If a child lives with friendliness, he learns that the world is a nice place in which to live.

T7HoHEF pg 328

:) Salam

hehehe

2011-05-29T10:18:00.000+02:00

So I was trying to blog these past few days but had some problem logging in to blogger.
Sad betul. :)
But I'm back.. InsyaAllah can write again~ Wee hoo~

*today I'll be busy. Attempting to make some dessert but don't know which yet.*

Doughnut versus egg tart. :D

to do

2011-05-24T21:42:00.000+02:00

"I don't wanna wait, for my life to be over"

So Abu Productive uploaded a much needed video on Youtube last week.
I realised how I've spent some days(especially when there're no exam) being bored and EXTREMELY unproductive. Which is sad and regretful. Eek!
Alhamdulillah, to have given this chance to wake a little and start some small steps into BIG things.
The funny thing is, someone actually showed me a similar guide before, only I was being too judgemental to notice it's importance back then. So sorry!

Betullah apa yang Saidina Ali r.a. sampaikan: "Lihatlah kepada apa yang dikatakan dan janganlah kamu lihat siapa yang berkata".

*I must work harder to learn to love unconditionally so that I won't waste precious words and advice from people around me!*

Anyway, this video talks about our duties as human being, the point of being born and later die. How life without goals is boring, setting up goals and the type of goals to set up. The uploader also volunteers to help go through your goal and see areas in which you should upgrade on. Heee~ And most importantly, at the end of the whole planning, to go through em' goals and see how it leads you to Jannah.

I have yet to find goals for some area. Can't imagine myself there yet (One of those times when imagination is unable to flower. I must be getting old. Kekeke)

Enjoy~

And thank you Allah for the knowledge.
Keep on doing our best jom ;)

not-so-classic grilled beef stew

2011-05-10T18:37:00.001+02:00

Yee haaa~ I was recipe hunting at hanamemories (terima kasih Kak Zainab for the recommendation) cause I have no idea what to cook for dinner today but nothing seems to interest me there.
So I headed over to Youtube and found this awesome video all Texas-kampung-ish style. And the whole cooking thing was so campak-dan-masak that I had to try it out. :D
Actually, I think the smell of the beef stew is beyond awesome right now. Hahaha.. I can't stop thinking about eating it whilst writing this. :P (I'm waiting for the veggie to soften!)

Anyway, check out this video.

I had to make do with no charcoal grill (used the oven instead, at 220 Celcius for a few minutes) but for sure, that simple garlic-pepper-salt seasoning tastes so good! :) I sampled some meat before stewing them! Tasted like steak! Maybe cause I haven't been eating steak for a long time. Crave craveeee~~~

And I replaced lemon with asam jawa cause no lemon in the house.
If you watched the video, you'll see how he thicken the stew by pouring flour directly into the stew! Wicked! Hahaha.

And me have no bread to make garlic cheese bread~~~ Kyaaa~
I guess must wait for summer break. Malaysia ada semua! Hehehe. Okay, ini secara rasminya, menjadi salah satu misi di Malaysia! :D Oh yeah~

Hezky den everyone! :) Selamat ber-dinner!

Photos are from the cracked(literally :P) Nokia.

photo update

2011-05-08T15:12:00.000+02:00

:) Heee~ Kelsey uploaded the pics already!

Anyway, this is a memory of hanging out with the Lokes when they came over to Prague ^^

From left, Kelly, Kelsey, Kim, Nora. ;) *Auntie took the photo*

And, since this was at an apartment, there were no one to shush us... Kekekeke :P
Thanks for visiting! Hehehe.. I should go visit Dubai too sometime Kim! ^^
I love MC friends!

Alhamdulillah~

makan

2011-05-07T21:23:00.000+02:00

:) It has been too long since a post on food.
Nanti balik Malaysia have to start masak lebih sikit *insyaAllah*2 sekali sebulan okay tak? HAHAHA
Tapi alasan kami adik-beradik tu sangat kukuhlah: "Time duduk rumah sendiri, kitorang dah tak dapat rasa masakan mama yang sedap dan penuh kasih sayang tu dah. Kitorang balik ni, nak rasa masak air tangan Mamalah~" Wee hoo~
Kekeke. Macamlah kalau kita balik kampung, asyik nak makan Opah masak aje. Kan, kan, kan? Heee~

Mango Fish + Cendawan Goreng.

Okay, mango tu serius terover budget mango.. HAHAHA :P Nasib baiklah kau buah-buahan, taklah terasa kegemukan time makan XD

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Sempena Hari Ibu, tadi tengoklah video Matluthfi yang "ma ma ma ma" tu. Menarik cara dia ingatkan macam mana lembut betul peribadi seorang mak tu. Kan?

Ingat lagi time kecik-kecik, serius, nakal gila. Hahaha. Jadi, kalau buat salah, kadang-kadang tak terkata sebab takut kena marah. Tapi kalau buat salah sampai tercedera memang kena report kat Mama, sebab walaupun kena ~~bebel~~ marah, at least ada orang tolong tengokkan luka, tanpa denda. Kekeke.
Zaman adolescent lagilah, pantang kena cabar. Fikir-fikir balik sekarang, ish, degil betul budak sorang ni. Terima kasih Mama, sebab masih mengaku anak, walau diri ini selalu jiwa kacau. :P

I remembered being a budak yang serious and didn't like talking much. Even kat rumah pun, but then, you knew I love drinking coffee so much, and time study malam-malam, selalu ada orang tolong buatkan coffee. Hehehe. I remembered masa study kat hall kat atas, sengaja duduk dekat pintu bilik Mama. You were sleeping, but somehow, it feels like you're watching over me XD Driving force untuk study! And there were times when you worried that I haven't been resting enough, so you made sure I switch off the lights before you go to sleep. Then, when I was sure you were asleep, I switched the light back on. And tiba-tiba about 2am ada orang masuk bilik "awak tak tidur lagi ke?". Then I slept for real :) Heee~

Owh, owh, terima kasih Mama, jadi peneman untuk jalan jauh berkilometer untuk tenangkan jantung ini. :') You don't know how much I love those moments. Those were hard times, really hard times, and being with you, though we both preferred silence back then, was calming.
Terima kasih Mama, for backing me up, masa Cikgu cakap I should be someone else. I think that was the first time this stubborn child of yours confesses her problems, aite? *menangis bercucuran air mata* I didn't know that sharing your problem was a relieve, a lightening of one's burden, till that time. And after that, I couldn't stop talking to you :D Nyaaaa~ We all ended being chatterboxes XD
Untuk semua sacrifices, there were banyak sangat, now that I think of it. And those pun, benda yang Nora nampak aje.
Thanks Mama, for being so tough and yet extremely loving at the same time. ^^

T______________T Okay, dah syahdu sangat dah ni. Tulis tak adalah banyak sangat, tapi the brain is walking down memory lane dengan penuh semangat whilst writing. *sedu sedan*

Mama, jom terus berusaha! ^^ I love you very much! Saranghae! Alhamdulillah~
*balik summer, we have to lipatgandakan usaha menghafal tu! kekeke*

Happy Mama's Day! From the anak,
Nora. ^^

exaggerate till kaboom~

2011-05-06T23:18:00.000+02:00

Whoops.. thought too much the negative way... :P
*Astargfirullah* :'(

When we deal with problems by thinking too much of it but never practice anything to solve it, that's when assumptions start eating us up.
Then we'll start having fear of the unknown. Eeeek... I've only just experienced that and it wasn't pretty. In fact, it turned everything so gloomy~ *Imagine dark clouds with thunder and lighting, on a very cold night. Alone.*

Of course we're to think of things, tak bolehlah selamba-ly go bertindak tak tentu hala kan. XD
Tapi untuk benda-benda berat, buatlah atas kemampuan diri. Kalau kita tolak diri kita untuk melepasi limit yang dah termaktub hadnya, sah-sahlah otak pun boleh jam. :P

Thinking too much of a problem, won't make it necessarily easy to solve ;)

"Sometimes, it feels as if we're so distanced. Until I realised it was all in my head. :P Silly me!"

jangan putus harapan

2011-05-03T15:30:00.000+02:00

So much to learn from you, little guy.
Subhanallah!

Nenek, teruskan berusaha juga! Jadilah orang yang bersyukur atas nikmatNya.
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Hari ni, bilik dihiasi dengan satu lagi reminder -> resuscitate the body.
Exam tak patut jadi alasan untuk lemak dan malas exercise!!!

2011-04-30T20:16:00.001+02:00

I wish to be of help, not a burden but things don't always go as plan.
Sorry~
T_T

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I miss home so so much.
And I better polish those plans, to make them highly achievable.

Yosh!!!
Mari berusaha menjadi lebih bertanggungjawab!

patchworks in the OT

2011-04-28T21:10:00.000+02:00

As of this week, it's surgery for 5 weeks!!!

Class is starting to get more interesting. ^^

Thyroidectomy. Epic fail.
It didn't help when you're squished cause you'd run out of blood.
I ate a big breakfast for it.
And almost collapse anyway. *Malu gila!!!*

So I thought I'm not fit for surgery. Any surgery.
Until cochlear implant.
Terbaik wor! :D
The drilling, the puncturing, and I thought the placement of electrode was awesome!
And the assistants were so helpful with all the details. ^^

And I concluded, it wasn't skipping breakfast, it was probably the squishing.
Hehe.

This week = cardiovascular surgery.
I can't help be amazed with the whole extracorporal circulation thing. Bloody but definitely out of this world!
And it's size somewhat brought me to realise, the Creator indeed is Great, how a fist sized heart could manage all those pumping for so many years...Subhanallah!
And how with magnifying glasses, suturing coronary vessels can be an art of its own.
I also learnt the importance of having small steps for short Asians as myself :P If not, can't see anything.
This week is ending tomorrow :( but yeah, lets hope Bulovka would come out with more surprises! ^^

Honestly, I'm still undecided as to what to specialise in. @.@

Marilah berdoa untuk yang terbaik~
Weeee~

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Alhamdulillah~

Kim's visit

2011-04-26T20:51:00.000+02:00

We rarely keep in touch.
So thank God, when we meet, if felt as is, we were never apart.

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The heart flutters at thoughts of someone coming to visit.
And true enough, we always end up doing more than planned, in a good way!
Dear Kimberly Loke, thanks for coming over!
For dinner and the interesting stories which excluded Salman Khan! Kekeke ^^
And forged signature :P
The "girls" talk was totally unexpected and awesome. :D (Including quack doctors and free marriage advice) Hehehe :P

Enjoy touring around and all the very best with the development thingy! :D May all be well!!!

Hiii~
Alhamdulillah~ (thank God!) ^^

break free from you! ha!

2011-04-24T23:16:00.000+02:00

There're voices saying I should give up.

"Susah sangatlah ni"

Shut up voices.

Dear self, before you give up, please try.
That step is necessary to break down the wall. ^^
InsyaAllah, He has written what is best.
Have faith.
And the right attitude.

I'm trying out this habitator, it's been 2 months and the results are always a little disappointing in the later half of the month. :(
Yikes! :) I'm never the expert on time management, so probably it'll take a while to get used to. Hee~
From my observation though, I find that:
I forgot to allocate time for studying, and I also didn't list out things I have to cut down so as to be more productive in the habitator. (Things like, no junking, to not sleep more than 6 hours a day etc.)
Yup2, lets not give up and modify whatever weaknesses there are. ^^ Oh yeah! Selagi hayat dikandung badan, it's never too late to do our part! Assaaaaa~

Apa itu habitator? Tekan sini -----> HABITATOR

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O Allah, on this little journey, on what time I have left with, please make ease for what is best, for Your barakah, for Your Jannah, for I'm a human who sins, for I'm only human, for I fear your Hellfire. I am nothing, in fact, I'm a terrible person, without You.

Ya Allah, permudahkan langkahku untuk sentiasa beribadah kepadaMu.

Untuk hanyut,

Serius aku takut.

*tsk tsk*

Yang masih banyak khilaf,
Neneknora

how to stand back up again

2011-04-18T19:52:00.000+02:00

Get help :)

Help me if you can I'm feeling down,
And I do appreciate you being 'round,
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please~ please~ help me..

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Come on you! Teruskan berusaha!
Sila lalui ujian dengan penuh kesabaran, sebagai penghapus dosa-dosa.
Owh yeah!

swinging on monkey bars

2011-04-15T16:48:00.000+02:00

Mad and sane.

I believe I am both.

*Megalomaniac laugh*

It scares and excites me that really, between those two, there's merely this really thin line.
We all have odd ideas, don't we.
And it's our reactions and beliefs about them which are mad or sane or both.

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Today I believed I was once an ADHD child.
I'm surprised as to how I've suppressed my jumping around everywhere I go.
:)
My uncle was nice enough to remind me that I didn't only just jump.
I climb, slide and whatnots.

I remember being tied with my sister though because of my brilliant idea to turn the storeroom into a sliding rink.
Did you know that talc makes really good substitute for a slippery floor? Hihihi.

Being adventurous has its purpose though.

The bug incident was at our agama school, back in Kuantan, the one we have in the evenings after school.
I don't remember the people as much as the setting though.
There was a dead cockroach somewhere, and some smartarian boys when and handled it by using a penyapu lidi (a kind of broom).
Their aim? To scare girls. And yeah, they succeeded but they left the cockroach laying around after that.
And guess who went and grab the dead cockroach by the hand for revenge? Me. I sneaked up on them rather than make a big deal out of it. It was an interesting experience. I didn't know till then, guys aren't as brave as they make themselves look. Aha, they're human after all. I chucked the cockroach out.
It's weird that I did all that because now, I can't handle cockroaches. Just smelling them would make me have paresthesias on the tips of my finger. (Could it be because my fingers can't rid the memory?) Ugh.

Probably the best way to enjoy an adventurous day out is to have a partner. Mine was by the name Nur Zahirah Zamhuri. :) (I have yet to find this girl's Facebook!) My most memorable playtime with her would be an afternoon where we were cycling around our neighbourhood. And we found an interesting little puddle. :D
Guess what was in the puddle. Hehehe.
Textbook of frog metamorphosis!!! IN 3D. i.e. we saw, touch and play with real frogs! There were tadpoles, and frogs with two legs and a tail, frogs with 4 legs and a tail, and a full grown frog. A good way to study Science eyh? :D

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I totally miss exploring! :) Come next week I could go for an ORL surgery though. Lets hope it'll be as interesting! ^^
Weee~

pop the pills

2011-04-13T00:27:00.000+02:00

The week has been hectic and due to some be-earlied physiology, I'm drained.
Energy depletion.
Pop the pills.
And to dreamland I venture.

I shall rest.
For I dare not
Allow my body to saunter
Without good hand-eye coordination
The brain pilot must not shut
Not on a road as busy as Prague.
*tram bell rings*

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Why are we still surviving? Cause we have strength to.

Alhamdulillah.

nan keum isseo

2011-04-03T15:43:00.000+02:00

"NAN KEUM ISSEO"

(Tak, I tak nak makan roti nan. Ini maksudnya: Ku Punya Impian)

Okay, cuba baca dengan air muka Go Hye Mi sebelum hati dia dilembutkan.

Hehe.

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I like Dream High - drama.

And this song I'm introducing has really good lyrics.

It fits the moment ;)

Go ahead and find the English translation if you have the time.

If you don't, then this will be my little secret (unless you know Korean).

Hahaha

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I called home yet again.

So someone when to fix the printer today and the orang kedai was in an experimental mode.
And the experiment didn't turn out well, and he insisted to try again and again.
(If something turns out terrible after a try, it's best to change some methods of handling, no? :P Wah. Ini nasihat general! Malangnya, he didn't)
So the someone, ~~ugut~~ cakap dengan penuh lemah lembut, "Kalau awak print lagi, saya jerit bagi satu Carrefour dengar".
Apakah? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. (Mesti orang kedai tu pun tergamam sekali)
Tapi yelah, degil, orang cakap tak nak, tak nak ah!!!
At this point of the story, I was laughing really hard already.

Trust my family to give the best stories without fail every week.
:D And I smile over and over again~

About smiling, I should put up an effort to do more of that. :)
Just because people around you are with sore faces (sampai buat sendiri rasa bersalah), don't be affected.
SMILE. There're gazillions of reasons to. ;)

Okay then, SENYUM semua!
Ka chak! (Camera clicks)

bilamana ku jauh dariMu

2011-03-27T18:48:00.001+02:00

Jantung, bergetarlah
Air mata, mengalirlah
Hamba, kau tunduklah
Tubuh, menggigillah

Dan kedua tangan itu kau angkat
Minda fokus pada yang Satu
Pohonlah, pintalah
Pada Yang Maha Agung

Aku serius takut.

not alone

2011-03-26T20:54:00.001+01:00

Salam :)
Sharing one of my favourite song from AVPM
Today I'm reminded of Dumbledore's Army.
And consequently, Harry Potter. I have to agree with Sarah that Harry Potter is somewhat a part of my childhood :P Seeing as how me and my chummies are mostly Harry Freakin Potter's fan, it probably is a part of this adulthood transition as well.
Owh, the song:
Not Alone.

Ukhuwwah atas dasar keimanan. Owh manisnya~ Siapa pernah baca buku Sinergi? Best worrr! :D

Cause people, like characters, develop.

Except in Twilight. Kyaaa~ Jangan marah XD

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Owh and today, I was so exhausted that I couldn't think straight. I know I had to rest somehow, but thinking of exam got me a lil stressed :P

I ask God for peace.

And Alhamdulillah, I was knocked out with an hour's worth of worry-free-nap. It amazes me how I was able to nap with all the thinking going on in my mind but yeah, I'm really grateful that I did. :) Feel a lil energized now. Alhamdulillah~

And then Kak Syaz came and sempatlah luahkan perasaan. Hehe.

Okay2, lets get back to work ^^

Hezky vikend!

i'm eyeing you

2011-03-23T21:11:00.000+01:00

Dresses are in store now!
And they're so lovely! ^^
Rasa macam nak beli semua, tapi tak semua yang indah itu untuk dimiliki.
Haha.

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Dan saya tak suka isu skandal dijadikan bahan untuk diwar-warkan ke seluruh pelosok dunia.
Benda-benda yang sensitif, kalau selalu didedahkan kepada masyarakat, akan membuatkan masyarakat jadi immune.
Tak dapat bayangkan budak-budak tengok/baca berita yang mengarut macam tu. Perkataan se*s tu masih taboo bagi diri ini. Serius.

I somehow think that disturbing issues like this will interfere with proper mental development of a child (if the child reads/watch/hear).
Heh. Guess parents and future parents will have to train their children to be much smarter at filtering them bad and good information, since to disallow ANY form of information to reach children would only hinder their growth.

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For having taught us children,
Thank you parents, for giving us enough freedom, to learn from mistakes.
Thank you parents, for giving us enough restrictions and keeping us safe.
Alhamdulillah. ^^

haphazard

2011-03-12T15:21:00.001+01:00

Like Brownian motion
Loss in a line of action

In this labyrinth of constellation
I see only a fraction
A fraction
Of dynamic passion

You who were left hidden
You who were left so sudden

Here's to you, an apology
I'm sorry

Lets run hand in hand
We're running late
We're running out of time
Lets start again
More importantly, lets end this together

Bismillah

A pantun to accompany:
You're on an airplane.
I naik train.

See you there (though a bit later!)

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I wonder if I'll remember why I wrote this.
Haha.

Siberian Husky. Rawr! ^^

no, no way!

2011-02-26T11:43:00.000+01:00

master of all trades

2011-02-22T18:43:00.000+01:00

It's what I try to be though it doesn't necessarily work out well.

Over the year I've stumbled upon two things that would require lotsa practice, patience and strong will.
Music and a particular sports activity :P
The particular sports activity did make me feel bad for a while but I thought, at least I there're other things I'm capable of doing.
You know, like playing tag, hide and seek, and the most anticipated event at home, Malaysia, ujian fleksibiliti. :D Ha!
My siblings and I play DINING-table-tennis as well! ^^ (due to the lack of space and a table tennis table at home :P)
And Frisbee. Well, maybe not Frisbee. (Imagining images of the Frisbee flying towards longkang and see-saw and slides)
Cycling sampai cedera merata-rata.
Okay, enough of melegakan diri :P

This summer break is giving hints of EQ lessons. :) I honestly can't wait.
And that thing I've been longing to see, to be with, for the last 15 years too. (Well, rather, it's something I had never imagined happening but seeing as how it came to be, I thank Allah, Alhamdulillah, for having me see this day. Perhaps, it made the trauma worth it. :') Yup2, lets pray harder, we'll get there o family~)

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I was triggered today by a question posted by a friend, on growing wise and it's relation to knowledge and experience.

What I think is that, you'll only grow wise if you LEARN something out of the knowledge/experience and PUT it TO USE.
They (knowledge and experience) can come to you or you may seek them but only a certain amount would be left to be instilled in your habit depending on how much of their IMPORTANCE you REALISE and UNDERSTAND.

Prolly the basic step into being wise is to realise a simple thing and pass it off as knowledge.
Owh, that doesn't sound wise. It's academic. :P
Tee hee~

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Opportunity knocks on the door the other day.
Alhamdulillah ^^
There's an idea I hope to make reality. Resurfacing what I've tried but failed to manage last time :P
Lets do it!!!
Benda baik tak elok dilambat-lambatkan. We don't want later to be too late. ;)

London memories. We went to Rasa Sayang and ordered all the Nasi menu and shared between us. It was deliciously interesting. And this April, Evon's coming to Prague! ^^ Wee hoo~ Can't wait!

thanks for reminding me

2011-02-12T22:31:00.000+01:00

Salam ^^
Here comes yet another collection of mind decluttering:

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I hope that every time someone teaches me something or whenever I'm at fault, I'd be humble enough as to thank Allah for the reminder, and thank the person for having knocked sense into me.

There are those around me who are kind enough to help curb me in the right direction ^^. Family and some really great friends. Alhamdulillah for having met you people cause alone, this journey would have been much much harder.

As for those who have high hopes on me, believe me, I'm trying but I'm sorry if I'm not to par.
I can give, but the most I can give is what I have and what I can. :) I am human after all. And like every other, I too strive to be better every day.

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I talked on independence with Mama the other day. And how freedom would always require a good plan and sacrifice.
Don't rush things. Think many more steps ahead than just one.
Above all, have the right intention ^^ (Abah's favourite line when SMS-ing the anak-anak)

There are some chains I'd like to break free from.
So that I could fly. Higher.
And then I'll reach my destination, I'll reach my dream.

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Today Kirin got back to Czech from Malaysia. And she brought back Burger King and Choki Choki ^^
I is so happy~
Charity in winter = warmth~ Alhamdulillah ^^

And OZ is on the list next year, insyaAllah~

those times

2011-02-07T19:49:00.000+01:00

when I make myself believe I were Jimmy Neutron, Cindy Vortex, Artemis Fowl, Ciel Phanthomhive.

This may probably be one of those times.

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Cause I have found a dream that must come true,
Every ounce of me must see it through ^^

hold your own, know your name, go your own way

2011-01-20T21:37:00.000+01:00

Well, more to that.
To go your way, I guess it's important to know where you've been, where you are and where you're going.
Cause if you don't, you're probably going the wrong direction!
;)

eeeeeek~

2011-01-16T19:59:00.000+01:00

Gay, bromance, brotherhood?

Having met a few patients whose sexual preference is homosexual, my brain has been fast at coming to conclusion on who is gay.

I haven't met that many to rule out who is not though :P which makes things a lil awkward - cause I tend to over focus, and the person would realise, and it ends up all giggly on my part for coming to such accusation. Which isn't very appealing if I were alone cause it'll make others think that I'm crazy. Yikes.

If I were right then I'll get to the melancholic mode.
Aih this people, banyak giler masalah kot jadi gay~

Syphilis

HIV - and its many consequences - AIDS, brain toxoplasmosis, pneumocystic pneumoniae, cryptococcal meningitis, candidasis, kaposi's sarcoma, non Hodgkin's lymphoma. Bla bla bla. And it's incurable!!!

Hepatitis B - once your liver starts to die, the only hope is transplant, kay?

And the list goes on.

Ruginya untuk hidup macam tu. :'(
Silalah kembali kepada fitrah manusia yang sebenarnya.

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Bromance?

:D HAHAHA
Lets not get any further than that huh!

cool ;)

2011-01-11T19:59:00.001+01:00

I think this video is awesome!
My Youtube account is on Cestina (i.e. the Czech language) so I haven't a clue how to embed it here :P.

Guess you could click awaaaaaay~

Click click click!!!

What great dedication it must have taken to produce the video!
It's like watching words come to animate.
(I like the part where the deer that was hunted, eaten and killed was brought to life and ran away. It's climax and anticlimax in one!)

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On a personal update, life is good :) Alhamdulillah

Though I have to admit, I've been in a state of confusion (which led to a few blog posts that didn't make it to public! Ha!) but all is well, thank you Allah for bringing me through it. :)

I have yet to share something with everyone.
*Searches the computer*

Ta da!
Abah sent this last month ^^
*Abah please send more MMSes~ They make me happy~ ^^,*

Introducing, my family, my love, my source of awesome-ness; clockwise from left:
Yasmin, Mama, Abah, Luqman, Rahman, Hana, Taufiq

Till next time, everyone, salam~

cold, but i still melt for you

2010-12-22T11:07:00.000+01:00

Subhanallah ^^

Out of my window
You fall~

Tap tap
Softly on the glass

Tap tap
Softly on the hand I've reached outside

Lalala~

Roasted chestnuts

Yum~
Especially when warm and fresh
To accompany a winter's night ^^

Owh and my housemate and I round "Rambutan Juice" and it tastes like lychee. Ha! Still, lychee tastes good too!

:) Hows your winter?

she who grabbed hold of the cat

2010-12-16T19:05:00.000+01:00

So I finally got hold of 'the' cat. 'The' being that it's the only pet cat I know here in Prague.

Yay!

Only, the downside is, it made me miss Prince Ellie more than ever~

I can't wait for holidays for a much needed rest cause the body is down with the flu. Surviving though! :)

Come Saturday I shall start the sleep-eat-heal regime :D

Meeko.

Ellie. Ellie really looks like that dragon from "How to Train Your Dragon". His face lah. And he's a giant compared to Meeko. Memanglah seekor kucing jantan. Hehe.

Ohkay, now to get back to sTomatology. Come on you! Berusahaaa!

for a friend

2010-12-10T17:51:00.000+01:00

To Kak Liyana ^^
This was made at Karlovo Namesti, Praha 2, Czech Republic.
Hehe.
Sorry, I tak ada camera DSLR, ada camera 3.2MPix Nokia je >.<
Enjoy the snow~

pitter patter

2010-12-09T16:18:00.000+01:00

White winter.
Hiiii~

Wear warm, and you'll stop bickering and start appreciating.

Be nice.
It is never out of style.

I heart winter ^^

Alhamdulillah~

snow is here!!!

2010-12-03T15:17:00.000+01:00

(Thamarai and I)

Or rather, it has been here for sometime. Hee~
And I'm enjoying every bit of it.

How to keep yourself warm, cozy and happy during winter? (Not listed according to priority)
1. Wear many layers of warm clothing. Opt for wool, fleece, thermal wears; those really comfy ones on the inside, before putting on the mega winter jacket! This would refrain you from being so noisy, complaining about the weather whilst outside.
2.Wear a beanie. Keeps the ear and head warm. Ears don't fall off and the brain won't freeze.
3. Wear thick socks to keep 'em toes warm. Or be prepared for pain if you're up for a long walk. Yikes.
4. Wear waterproof shoes (wet - means a faster process with frostbite!) with good friction. This would avoid having to grip/press with your plantar onto the ground to remain stable. It also ensures that you don't slip and fracture your precious skeleton or bleed due to injury of a vessel. Gets you to class on time too!
5. Be well hydrated. It's cold and we don't feel thirsty like summer, but yeah, it's so dry that you actually lose lotsa water. Drink lots. Cause once you start coughing, it may very well be the first signs of bronchitis. :(
6. Moisten yourself with body lotion/body butter/baby oil. Whichever best for you! A skin too dry is susceptible to cuts even from doing simple things such us unzipping your winter coats.
7. Have a source of warmth with you. I don't usually carry hot drinks wherever I go, but with winter such as this one, perhaps it is time to consistently do that. Or really, if you're too cold, go and have a snow fight with friends. This helps me a lot. Wear waterproof gloves for a more enjoyable adventure :P Hehe.
8. At home, although there is the heater, it doesn't necessarily provide as much heat as we would like, so go on, put those socks on! Wear hoodies! And a warm tea every now and then seems a good idea. >.^
9. Be among friends. They'll keep you happy. Most of the time. If one is not, maybe she has PMS, so run away :P HEHE.
10. Check tram schedules. To avoid being late for class. And being the centre of unwanted attention~

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Yesterday, me and 2 of the classmates helped a man push his van cause it was immobilised with the deep snow.
We failed.
:(
but the fellow said thanks! :)

And yesterday was also educating and funny cause we did some simulations.
With per rectum examination and ear examination and resuscitation and ABI Bosso and ECG and spirometry and ultrasound and the rest which I don't pay much attention to since we did it before :P

And this weekend = zaharuddin.net. Hoho

Hee~

Alhamdulillah ^^

15 years

2010-11-29T17:26:00.000+01:00

O Allah, thank you. :')

For making it bearable.

Having to survive through it.

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Always pray for a happy ending.

No matter how far it may seem from reach.

Pray for the best.

Pray that He ease what is best.

For you.

For me.

For us.

For all of us.

^^

Salam

what happened to calming down?

2010-11-23T17:03:00.000+01:00

I unnecessarily flung my professor's file and an enveloped document today.
I'm amazed at how immersed I got when answering her question.

I answered, whilst expanding my arms, "It is..."
BANG!
And everything on the counter drops.

"OH!! I'm SOOOOOO SORRY!"

>.< wanting to hide face, but I wasn't even at the second question yet! Ha!

Yeah, trust my body to act on its free will at grave times such as an exam. :P
Alhamdulillah cikgu tak marah or anything of the sort! Heee~ ^^

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Today is stochastic :D

2010-11-22T18:28:00.001+01:00

I was reminded that some people can be really mean.
And the effect of that being mean can be really painful.

I too can be mean at times.
I hope I realise I was being mean.
Then I could apologise.

Before it is too late.

I'm sorry! Prominte! Minta maaf!

Anyway, speaking of pain, have you ever felt pseudo angina pectoris? Hehe. I'm recalling some moment in time when I watched some really sad drama (or movie, I can't remember) and my heart and hand hurts so badly. I'm making it sound serious, am I not? Hehe. Chill~

The heart is such a fragile little thing. I wish to keep it nourished, with lotsa good things and lotsa happiness ^^
Yeah. Lets do just that!
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Someone told me I look my age. :) (: Yay!
*the dramatic self twirls*

Ohkay then, chop! chop! Off to nerding~ Wow weeeeee~

Salam everyone!

raya haji ^^

2010-11-18T19:12:00.000+01:00

Eid mubarak! :)

This year, we learned a bit of history.

And the difference between sumbangan (contribution) and pengorbanan (sacrifice).

And Abah MMSed me a photo. To which I couldn't MMS back cause I didn't activate my MMS function. Ha! I thought I was really behind technology and that I needed a new phone. (Guess this one will do for a really long time!)

I thought that Puan, Tuan, En Muzambli, Kak Ida, Mikail and Iman totally made it like a kampung raya. It's like having your aunties and uncles and little cousins (and the many many "cousins" i.e. other students!)

Thanks Kak Alia + husband, Kak Sharifah, Kak Adilah and Aqilah for the treat! ^^ It sure made the week more interesting and meaningful!

Alhamdulillah ^^

Photos credit: Abah, Kak Syamira

i miss you so

2010-11-10T19:07:00.001+01:00

Alhamdulillah.

That me and you, we are in speaking term again.

Of course it means a lot to me.

Before that phone call

Life has been hectic

I haven't the time to reminisce

That farewell we choose to miss.

In the midst of the hustle,

Sadly,

My heart would weep

Everytime I see on the street

Child and father

Walk hand in hand

Say words of goodbye

Carrying her little bag

Heh

Father and child

Jealousy :P

Did I mentioned, how happy I am,

Now that we are talking again?

Alhamdulillah ^^

I wanna kidnap Hazim's (junior) cat for a day but Mama said I should refrain from getting too friendly with furry beings. (retort: I survived just fine~)

I am missing Prince Ellie. :'(
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I hope to be able to settle exams well.

Then I can really contribute at home.

Have a proper holiday.

As a daughter, sister, friend, cousin etc.

Ohkay! Back to work work work~

november already

2010-11-01T20:36:00.000+01:00

Salam all ^^ how have you been?
Good? Alhamdulillah.
Not good? Alhamdulillah, and insyaAllah, lets pray for better moments in life to come.

Tonight, I am indulging Old Town White Coffee with music put on at really slow volume and on the medical student level, reading and writing cardiovascular pharmacology.

This came last week ^^ Wee~
I know I should reduce my 3in1 consumption, probably not on the ones which have just arrived. :P Because I love coffee so so much! And it's OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE kot! Haha!

As for putting on music at the-lowest-possible-volume-my-ear-could-detect, it's a training to make my ear more sensitive to sounds. Maybe I could auscultate better that way? Who knows?
Lup-whooosh
Whoooosh-Dub
:P

One thing for sure, head-banging-dance songs are much more tolerable this way. ^^

We have a test coming for Pharmaco. On CVS. I still have 5 questions to draft out :P
CVS pharmaco is much more acceptable when Prof Natasa (Natasha) told us to list them drugs nicely in a schedule.
It made clear the difference of the groups of drug that work to give the same effect (well, almost the same effect).
She is one intelligent woman!
*googles intelligent*

Intelligent, bright, brilliant, knowing, quick witted, smart, intellectual.
The difference?

These adjectives mean having or showing mental keenness. Intelligentusually implies the ability to cope with new problems and to use the power of reasoning and inference effectively: The intelligent math students excelled in calculus. Bright implies quickness or ease in learning: The bright child learned the alphabet quickly. Brilliant suggests unusually impressive mental acuteness: "The dullard's envy of brilliant men is always assuaged by the suspicion that they will come to a bad end" (Max Beerbohm). Knowingimplies the possession of knowledge, information, or understanding:Knowing collectors bought all the auctioned paintings. Quick-wittedsuggests mental alertness and prompt response: The quick-witted emergency medical staff averted a tragedy. Smart refers to quick intelligence and often a ready capability for taking care of one's own interests:Smart lawyers can effectively manipulate juries. Intellectual implies the capacity to grasp difficult or abstract concepts: Dinner at the philosopher's house was noted for its intellectual conversations.

credit: education.yahoo and Prof Payne for telling me those wonderful explanation of intelligent :D

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My younger sister, Min is taking her SAM exam now (this week and next). :) Lets all pray for her success eyh?
Thanks!

the challenge

2010-10-26T20:33:00.000+02:00

I've had too much processed food and drink of late.
And true, my body isn't actually agreeing with that routine.

I guess I won't be up front talking about what's wrong with the food system but this Birke Baehr child is really a gem.

How far a distant would one go, to uncover truths so as not to fall into traps?

Kyaaa~ How could I be wise if I'm not even aware of what I eat/drink/do everyday?

Owh dearie me~

*Astargfirullah*

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Things to do, towards a healthy living insyaAllah :)

Cut down on the processed food.

Cook instead of snack! Try to pack food to class! Believe that you can do that! It is simple!

Cut down on 3 in 1s.

And most of all, be more aware of what you do!

Salam all!

i shall wear midnight

2010-10-25T17:31:00.001+02:00

It is important that we know where we come from, because if you do not know where you come from, then you do not know where you are, and if you don't know where you are, then you don't know where you're going. And if you don't know where you're going, you're probably going wrong.

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In the book "I Shall Wear Midnight" by Terry Pratchett, Tiffany Aching was taught about taking it slow.
And it's quite interesting how her "I'm marrying you" turned out in reality for Tiffany Aching.
Hows that for a book review? :P

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As for health go, I think I ate less than what I did on weekends, which result in fatigue now :P which isn't so good cause I have an exam coming soon. Yipes.

So dear me, sila makan secukupnya bila dah tahu ada aktiviti-aktiviti luar kebiasaan yang akan dilakukan di masa hadapan (please eat adequately if you've in your schedule other activities in future). And everyone else too! Please take care of yourselves with enough food. Hehe.

:D

Have a GREAT week everyone, have a BLAST!

Salam~

Wednesday: Meeting a friend at CH. Where coffee is loved, ciggies banned! Muahahaha!

simply luverly~

2010-10-18T22:10:00.000+02:00

All About Your Heart

Mindy Gledhill, Kendra Lowe
© Blue Morph Music 2010 (BMI), Kendra Lowe (ASCAP)

I don't mind your odd behavior
It's the very thing I love
If you were an ice cream flavor
You would be my favorite one

My imagination sees you
Like a painting by Van Gogh
Starry nights and bright sunflowers
Follow you where you may go

Oh, I've loved you from the start
In every single way
And more each passing day
You are brighter than the stars
Believe me when I say
It's not about your scars
It's all about your heart

You're a butterfly held captive
Small and safe in your cocoon
Go on you can take your time
Time is said to heal all wounds

Chorus

Like a lock without a key
Like a mystery without a clue
There is no me if I cannot have you

Chorus

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I find this song very sweet and luverly~ ^^
Go google it!
You can get a free mp3 from her website too!

Thank you Miss Best Friend for the recommendation! :)

school, i feel you~

2010-10-14T20:37:00.000+02:00

This week has been tiring.

I think Psychology, Ethics and Anatomy has increased my age by 10 years.

HAHAHA :P

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My brain capacity has been drained or rather, turned edematous with the myriad of random facts poured in forcefully these past few days :P

You know how people depict a well functioning brain as having "juice", well mine is now probably multivitamin juice, you know, the kind where they blend in all types of fruits.

Lets hope whatever organised mess there is in my brain would unclutter well and could be verbally delivered tomorrow.

Apples!

Pineapples!

Carrot!

Grapefruit!

Kekeke ^^

Struggle this one last night before we wrap this week and snuggle comfortably on the bed with a good non-MED-school book, and yummy hot drink~

At least for 3 hours. :) The snuggling, that is.

InsyaAllah :)

the calf muscles cry

2010-10-06T21:02:00.000+02:00

Our owner, it was terrible
How you led us into this trouble

Of all things you're not capable
Being clumsy is the most unacceptable

In that cold cold atmosphere
Oh my, how we suffer

24! 9!

Why must you run after trams?
Did you not think of the cramps?

Why oh why love
Forgot you, the stove?

That indeed you switched off
Long before you went off?

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I have this repeating fear that I have left something switched on in the house, when in actual fact, I did turned them off before I leave.

And today, my mind was haunted with the fact that I may not have switched off the hot plate. *Fantasising the house and some fire trucks, policemen, dr madle's insurance representatives. Ha ha ha.*

To accidentally leave the hot plate on without any utensils on top wouldn't have agitate me so, but today, I remember that the frying pan was placed there because I planned to fry an egg this morning (which I didn't as I found something else to eat) and didn't put the pan away.

Later in class (and what do you know, the professor was talking about OCD today :P) I couldn't concentrate and had to head back to check if the house was still in one piece. (I heard that the professor demonstrated some disgustingly interesting things when I was away. T.T rugi tak tengok, what to do? Anxiety took hold of me leh. :( )

Anyway, today was pretty much sprinting, laughing and calming down (whilst on tram), more sprinting, which slows to a run when my heart felt like it was going to explode, laughing again since the house is intact and yeah, the stove was definitely wasn't an active volcano waiting to explode! I DID switched it off :P

This little OCD(click!) of mine. I hope you don't have plans to make life more dramatic for me eyh!

My calf muscles are crying now :'(
Lactate acidosis kot.

Alhamdulillah, though it was tiring but definitely adventurous!

(Dan di saat ini, I know exam is near but tonight, let me sleep more hours ya!)

nyeh heh

2010-10-01T21:20:00.000+02:00

I bumped into this couple on my way to get some glue and binding rings in town.

Pajamas in broad daylight!

Like oh so random!

As absurd as I feel I sometimes am, I don't think I'd ever pull this act. :)

(Though it was definitely a head turner, one coupled with a smile. ^^)

charmander, I summon you!

2010-09-28T15:36:00.000+02:00

It has been getting a lil' too cold around here. And the non functioning heater is making things worse :P Meh.

There's the electric heater but one senior told me it's gonna cost us so much if we turn it on frequently so I'd probably switch it on when other methods of keeping own self warm won't be of help.

Good thing there's the layering option. (i.e. wearing many layers of garments)

:)

Charmander is a Pokemon by the way, a dragon that spits fire.

An ideal release from a Pokeball in times such as this one ;)

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Kak Syifa told me that her mom told her, if a cat enters your dream, it's a sign that it misses you. Do cats dream of us when we miss it?

Oh ponder. Ponder.

:'( I'm missing Ellie so miserably. And like any human beings, I only realised it when Ellie's not near.

Ellie is now in home, Malaysia. A cat that - is potty trained, purrs well, bathe weekly (he smells oh so nice!), knows how to give leg massage, catch flies. He is also a good listener. Ha!

:'(

:'(

Oh so sedih!

family day

2010-09-24T19:42:00.000+02:00

So we went a little somewhere during the summer break.

Wanna know a bit about my family?

Click here!!!

Alhamdulillah for the experience ^^

Terima kasih daun keladi Cikgu Yana!

oh you!

2010-09-24T15:12:00.003+02:00

School is about to start.

Again.

And truth be told, I have been very hyper lately.

Must take it slow.

ATP supply mustn't be depleted when school starts for real!

EEEEEEP!

a thing or two or more

2010-06-27T11:17:00.002+02:00

Alhamdulillah ^^

Life's little journey seems to be filled with many surprising happenings.

It's good that it gives less room to slack (though I still make many mistakes).

A bit of the emotional quotient got fixed, with the help of a friend and a little conscience.

I could do with more tips on how to make others happy. :P

I'm such an amateur!

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I have yet another exam to go with.

So it's back to reading, processing and plastering.

Pray for our (us students') success and well being here ^^

That would help lots.

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For we are nothing without Allah.

I wouldn't know how to manage life without Him.

Salam :)

hot head, literally

2010-06-05T22:50:00.003+02:00

Salam all~

SUMMER.

The heat is no joke around here. O.o

I'd almost diagnose myself with giant cell arteritides. Kekeke ^^

Staying still at home seems best option this time of the year.

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A KTT friend told me, when God let you experience things, it's because He's giving you a message.

Before complaining, think, what is He trying to tell you?

Alhamdulillah for the advice.

Believing that Allah is good helps to lighten many many things.

It's in a way, zikrullah. ^^ Subhanallah, how He helps us to always remember.

Alhamdulillah for the interesting roads in life.

It allows one to be more matured everyday. ^^

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As for Corrie, lets pray it'll arrive safely. Update: Docked at Ashdod now :(. No injuries reported.

Now for the Jewish boat aid. Hopefully, all humanitarian aid would reach Gaza safely and that the activists won't face another Gaza Flotilla. :'(

*Pray pray pray*

white

2010-06-04T21:30:00.004+02:00

Has a calming effect.

White.

Hehehe.

I was indirectly influenced to start drawing again - non anatomical kind ;) - hence the cartoons-with-shaky-lines. (Lets hope it'll improve with time. ^^)

Alhamdulillah, today marked the last day of school. At the same time also meaning -> it's exam period baybee~ *insert flabbergasted icon*

Credits on Skype. Check.

Motivational books. Check.

Things to prevent sleeping. Check.

Medication. Check.

(Owh ya, I now carry an inhaler around. It feels cool. Haha. Doink. :P )

Friends to talk to. Check.

And most of all -> prayers.

*Do pray a lot! For you have your plans, and He has greater plans. Pray that you'll be ready to accept whatever has been written!*

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It's not enough to visualise a dream.

You must make it practical.

Make it come true.

i.e. WORK TOWARDS IT

The higher you aim, the more you have to put in!

Don't settle, strive for more! ^^ It's always worth it!

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Owh terlebih semangat pulak this nenek ^^

However, before I go, reblogging a video from Kak Syamira's blog:

Salam peeps and all the best!

spread the news!

2010-06-02T09:56:00.002+02:00

An interesting read. (Click here)

I personally think it's important to spread the news on the structured cruelty of Israel.

Because most of us are good people with moral conscience.

This loss serves as a reminder for us all to UNITE.

For what I can do is miniscule compared to what WE can do, as one.

Spread the news, and have that spirit to help the oppressed.

Keep that spirit burning inside of you and promote peace.

Train your heart to hate what is evil.

So that you have no doubts in recognising what is evil and no doubts to sacrifice yourself to prevent it.

Good people versus villains. History taught us, that it has always been that way.

And lets pray that we're ALWAYS on the right side.

InsyaAllah.

It'll be a long fight. It'll hurt a lot but it's worth it.

Remember self, stay focus!

Israeli troops storm Gaza flotilla

2010-05-31T08:25:00.002+02:00

There used to be a video here, depicting how Israeli troops were taking charge of Gaza flotilla.

Civilians on the boat were really calm and non threatening unlike what was spread by the Israeli media.

*Insert many swear words* Israeli troops. Pfft!

And stupid stupid media for disallowing the truth to surface. Stupid heads. Urgh.

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I don't have weapons to go against you except for my prayers.

One day, you'll all have to pay for what inhuman crimes you did. It's a written promise.

And on that day, there is NOTHING you can do to slither out of it.

No conquering the media.

No spinning webs of lies.

Even your big fat weapons of mass destruction won't save you.

You'll suffer. Big time.

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Allahuakbar! God is Almighty!

surviving fear

2010-05-25T22:14:00.002+02:00

"We stand at the crossroads, each minute, each hour, each day, making choices. We choose the thoughts we allow ourselves to think, the passions we allow ourselves to feel, and the actions we allow ourselves to perform. Each choice is made in the context of whatever value system we've selected to govern our lives. In selecting that value system, we are, in a very real way, making the most important choice we will ever make."

Benjamin Franklin

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Fight on people!

Try our best to think, feel, do, the goods which are right. ^^

We'll make it through insyaAllah.

T.T real man cries in his heart

2010-05-19T19:28:00.003+02:00

Aiyoo~

One definitely shouldn't act mean towards sick people.

They have enough grief to deal with in a given moment already. :P

Sedangkan kata-kata simpati dapat melukakan (read article here), apatah lagi kata-kata berunsur kemarahan.

Be reminded Nora!

*okay. back to being happy* ^^

adapting changes

2010-05-19T11:52:00.002+02:00

Salam peeps ^^

Pathology taught the importance of our body to make the right adaptation when it's assaulted.

i.e. bleeding should lead to coagulation at the bleeding site, and not DIC (disseminated intravascular coagulation), which would harm the patient with more bleeding :(

Likewise in living life, it's very important to adapt correctly to changes.

i.e. for oncologic patients, the difference between acceptance (when they cooperate actively) and resignation (when they cooperate passively) is death

*from Psychology class :P, based on the Kubler Ross' 5 stages of grief -> anyone wanting to come out with 5 stages of happiness? I'm sure the world could benefit from it ^^*

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I'm adapting to some changes (I'm sure everybody is :P) and hopefully they'd all go well~

Yee haa~

Now lets get to studying ^^

"O Allah, please make ease for what is best. Amin."

love light

2010-05-10T21:05:00.002+02:00

CN Blue's Love Light is sweet~

^^ happy happy

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Alhamdulillah today the presentation went well~

I didn't know till then that seperation of group by gender would cause so much competition (or was it the prize chocolate that brought people to strive?) :P

Definitely entertaining (at least I think so ^^)

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The daily reminder page put up on Facebook today:

"The short distance between a problem and it's solution is the distance between your knees and the floor. The one who knees to Allah (swt) can stand up to anything.. May Allah Grant us all strength Ameen"

Me likey. Short and sweet~

Turn to Him, for He has the best solution!

With that, good day and peace ^^

clean your house

2010-05-09T22:49:00.004+02:00

People should pretty much understand at a very young age, the importance of cleanliness.

That making a house fit to live in is vital and pleases many eyes and consequently, manyhearts.

Keeping a house clean at all times would require every member of the household to provide what strength and dedication they have to consistenly rid the house of dirt and debris.

Cleanliness is half of faith. <- You may click to further read about the hadeeth. (Sahih Muslim, Book 2, Number 0432)

How is cleaning good for us:

1. Prevents unnecessary hospital visits. (Attacks from heavy dust, contaminated food, toys lying around)

2. Gives a calming effect. What is good in the eyes, calms the heart.

3. Prevents unnecessary breeding of insects.

4. Prevents unnecessary 1-day-clean-the-house-till-it's-squeaky-clean.

5. Provide an environment fit for living.

6. People would respect you.

How is cleaning good for the rest of the world:

1. All of the above

2. Make the world a better place to live in.

I admit that the cleaning isn't done so frequently here like it was in Malaysia but Alhamdulillah, thank you housemates for being definitely-clean. ^^ Wee hoo~ Kebersihan tanggungjawab bersama.

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To a squeaky clean house:

1. Have all necessities (mop, brush, wipes, detergent -all types, broom)

2. Have all members of house participating in housework - this is very important! Squeaky clean house mission would fail if only 1 out of 5 members is squeaky clean!

3. Consistently perform your duty! (Take note that some areas require more frequent tidying up, e.g. kitchen, dining room, bedroom!)

Our house is practically a small Masjid for we pray in it everyday! Everybody, lets strive for cleanliness~ woot2~

Another random reminding note,

Nora ^^

1, 2, 3 what do I see?

2010-04-17T18:48:00.005+02:00

1. Dream outside the box

I've thought of what to do alongside being a doctor.

A farmer.

It'd be so cool to eat home grown food :) (:

(Secretly hoping there are lots of veggie grown at Malaysia home. ^^ Kangkung fresh adalah sangat sedap. Ulam. Nyum~ *Owh it rhymes!)

Yee haaaaa~

Getting there means going through whatever hurdle there is right now! I.e. exams. Lets strive hard people! Yosh!

2. Parents know best

Though they often disagree with one another :P. Having been under the care of dear parents, us children has probably grown immune to the many many restrictions (especially the daughters). It took years to find out what good those restrictions are for, Alhamdulillah we did. ^^ Sorry to have sulked and complained (ade ke? :P) but yeah, now we are old enought to directly ask of the whys (if we don't already know it, the reason that is).

3. A reminder: Terima kasih akak boss! ^^ -the goodly life-

Content: People always say, think before you act, but exactly what should you think of? Find the answer here! (InsyaAllah ^^)

Hope it helps!

That is all for today :)

Salam everyone!

*Title is a line from the song Great Day For Counting, Barney*

2010-03-19T18:48:00.001+01:00

Temperature reaches the teens today :D

Hohoho~

Alhamdulillah~

:) (:

dunya

2010-03-09T21:31:00.003+01:00

DUNYA (world)

The more you love

The less you live

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During the short break in class today, Sara asked me:

Zizi, are you listening to the Quran?

My heart metaphorically was dumbstruck and the tongue honestly muttered "No".

In all though, Alhamdulillah for the reminder :)

I hope to give you a yes for an answer in future dear friend!

Nora fighting!

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2NE1

As for studies go, attendance to lectures this year seems promising :)

Alhamdulillah for the drive to be present in halls, and to be able to absorb much knowledge I otherwise would have a hard time revising!

This is a gist of the draft I would soon delete about my being 21.

The age of 20 was a year where I faced many difficulties (don't all the years bring them? hehe). Pain, tears, drama became part of the daily routine. :P (There were laughter and happiness, yes, but those were frequently overshadowed by my being depressed. You can put the blame on me)
They don't all bring despair though. Those ups and downs taught me many things, such as, to appreciate someone when they're there, that it's a relief to express that you need someone rather than keeping the sadness confined for you alone to handle, and most of all, to always be dependent on God, to believe that what was written is best.
I had so MANY questions, most were answered the hard way due to my stubborn nature to accept change. I later learnt in one psychology lecture that it's normal that one who is anxious would hang on tight to what is familiar, cause to change is to face many challenges and that is risky when your state of mind is haphazard. It was a long struggle but Alhamdulillah, to be able to accept most of the changes.
I learnt about trust and tolerance in a relationship, and that seeking to understand one party before wanting to be understood is VERY IMPORTANT so that you don't get unecessary lectures :P
Well then, hello 21! Hello to productive years ahead. :) With the mission of obtaining more rewards (pahala)! Woot2~ Mama challenged on my allowance budgeting :D Yup2. I must be more responsible with spending! Abah suggested 1000 good deeds. :) Quote abah: the challenge is to catogerise them under the right place, for the right balance and for clear intent into legacy building: as ibadah khusus, minannas, umum, minalalamin. I think it's simple and fun. Join me won't you? ^_^

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Okay then people.

Have a nice day over there (snowing and cold here but it's a good thing :D, showers the city with nature!).

Salam and have a luverly day!

Nora

learning

2010-03-04T21:14:00.003+01:00

Salam readers :)

I was cleaning up the closet :P hehe.. nah, more like analysing some things, and people came over, some activities and celebrations came up, hence the super delay :P

Anyway, probably one of the things I discovered during the break was about improving my health :P

(Sorry for such a selfish post but if it relates to you, then know that I understand what its like :D)

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Having read Internal Medicine, I could pretty much relate my health conditions to many disorders. :P

As a patient, I don't think bronchospasm on exertion is that serious but having read the reasons why (pulmonary and cardiac disorders sound scary eyh?), it makes me more cautious on what I do, when I do it, for how long etc.

Like personality, disorders are also a result of nature and nurture, so I guess changing my lifestyle a bit here and there would help.

Exercise

Looking chronologically into life (childhood up to now) seems like it's when I've lived "idle" for too long that I experience terrible coughing and low FEV (result of bronchospasm) after exercise/when exposed to allergen.

Played tag last Saturday with friends, on the ice rink :P for a session of "warming up" before any real exercises.

:) It got better yesterday Alhamdulillah. Went for badminton and this time around, I was able to continue the game after 5 minutes rest~

Next week we are squash-ing :) Thanks Kirin for arranging the schedule!

Medication

I've set up alarms so as not to skip taking supplements :P.

Although the doctor didn't mention it, I know very well that it's for the older generation but yeah, some people are just a lil' weak so they have to take it :P.

I find that I needn't take it daily, minimum of twice a week and when there's something heavy to do that day (standing during autopsy for example, cause of the low blood pressure, there's tendency of pre-syncope due to hypovolumic shock).

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Being a patient and a medical student under one body leads to a part of me that worries and another part which is so enthusiastic on the outcome. Somewhat dangerously fun and interesting :).

I think what helped me the most out of this is to be informed of what I have, what I could do to make it better etc.

Having understand something would lead us into accepting what is right and eventually, do the right thing, InsyaAllah.

I know the anxiety of not knowing the hows, whys, whens, whats. And although knowing things would most of the time put me in fear, at least know I know what to avoid and what to do.

I pray that we would all be patient enough to help others to be well informed too! (Of just about any matter, not just medical!)

:) See ya!

Nora

sila gunakan tenaga kamu dengan baik!

2010-01-26T19:52:00.003+01:00

Salam readers :D

Amongst the best quotes Tisha might have taught me (especially when asked to play with her) would be:

"Kakak jangan bagi alasan". (Don't give excuses)

:P So true.

Excuses may very well inhibit our progress for they contribute to doubts and whatnots.

Give your best and leave the rest to Allah.

When something doesn't work out, insyaAllah, He has something better planned for you. :)

(And after playing around with Tisha, memang best pun. Elevates your cardiac output! Small children have lotsa energy weyh!!!)

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Miss home very much. It's the holiday syndrome :P

Palpitation syndrome = you are aware of your heart beat.

Missing home syndrome = you're aware that you're alone. Kyaaa~ T.T

Everyone, lets call home tonight! Woot~

Whilst waiting for morn' in Malaysia, back to studying!!!

materialistic?

2010-01-19T23:01:00.001+01:00

Things are to be used.

People are to be loved.

(Yet we so often do the opposite. Astargfirullah.)

fly higher

2010-01-17T14:42:00.003+01:00

Fly higher,

Than birds in the sky.

Even if metaphorically.

Remind me,

Of that seemingly old dream,

And what made me want it.

Keep firm,

Slowly I make my progress,

Why should I give up on my dream?

Sometimes it's hard to calm,

Hard to breathe.

Don't fight for what you won't receive,

For that, you can't give.

He knows your intention,

He knows your deeds,

Indeed Allah is All Knowing

The darker the night,

The brighther stars shine :)

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1. To be independent of things that would bring me down, or at least, whenever there's calamity, I to be able to utilise my energy and stand up again.

2. Constantly aware of why am I doing things, and why I must work hard to give the best I could.

3. Susan of the Hoghfather mentioned when meeting the ghost in the basement "Don't get afraid, get angry". Ever so often the word "cuak/scared" is thrown out of the mouth at the thoughts of a trial. Instead of being depressed over what is given to us, lets accept them as a challenge and not a problem, eyh? :D

4. One shouldn't compare himself with another fellow, for it's hard for us human to be just. We are born with our own personality, ability, capability and our own story. :) Do, what is in YOUR power, to do. And do it right!

5. Direct the right purpose for every thing you do, work competently and consistently. Knowing you've done your best, leave the rest to Allah. And InsyaAllah, all those written for you, is the best that could happen to you. Constantly pray that you'll be ready to accept what is fated, to accept that it is best.

6. :) InsyaAllah, having been through so much pain, we will bring ourselves to be more thankful. Provided that you don't turn blind and look around you! In the darkest of your days, search, even for the smallest little happiness. It's always there.

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It's been a while since a motivating post :D

Same content, different frame of mind from the last but with the same aim of being a better person. Hwaiting!

Salam~

creepy shadow guy

2010-01-14T22:55:00.003+01:00

(I firstly apologise for any mistakes made in this article)

I used to be scared of Jaafar's character in Aladdin.

And Ursula of The Little Mermaid.

And after watching The Arrivals (a documentary which tells of how small little things has conned us into believing that the wrong is right), I realised that I should keep my children away from Disney.

I only went 30 minutes into The Princess and The Frog and lookie lookie.. yet another villain with "powers from "friends on the other side" ".

Watch it yet? If not, well, the song clearly intimidates the prince to seek help from "friends from the other side", for they could fulfil his desire of being free. From the darkness, the skull, the randomly shaping shadow, one could tell these "friends from the other side" are definitely not good people.

And still, because one is so caught up in his worldly desires, he resorts to accept what the shadow man has to offer.

That's leaving your faith into something totally other than God. And for that to be a scene in a movie for children, well, that definitely made it sound like it's alright. Nauzubillah (we seek protection from Allah).

It's not just wrong.

It's FRIGHTENING since it is when we are children that we accept whatever we see ever so quickly.

On the other hand, there's also the fact that they would think "if my parents does it, then, it's alright" since parents are the ones whom they could look up to be, role models, for these are the people who were always there as the children grow.

Even if we tell them it's not alright, most of the times, action speaks louder than words.

Having been a child myself, it's true I've experienced many instances in which I prefer rebelling when what the parents mentioned is the exact opposite of what they do. Or more frequently, when an elder sibling does it. :P

Sometimes just simple little things like

"Don't place the book face-down"

"Put your clothes in the laundry basket after shower"

"Lock the door before you go up to bed"

and the list goes on.

We have yet so much to learn, to protect ourselves and people around us from accepting what is wrong, for these things has been perfectly veiled to look harmless in our eyes.

O Allah, for we are merely weak human beings, please lead our hearts into worshipping You and no other.

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And boo to people who suppresses others by torching down places where poeple pray to God.

ooh la la

2010-01-10T10:05:00.001+01:00

.the exams challenge is on.

.all the best everyone and see you again insyaAllah. :D

^.^

2009-12-28T10:11:00.003+01:00

Neneknora likes this!

Lyrics:
Well, if you were to be my girl,
Um, I could wait for you in the rain
With no umbrellas in my hands
I could just wait
I don't care if this is not the right time
'Cause I can't hide how I feel inside anymore
I've been waiting for you
And with this moment you'll be mine
I'll get you with my

One hundred roses
I caught you out of one hundred million ladies
I don't wanna be like any other guys out there
I wish I was special to you
My love Be my baby
I'll never let you slip away

Then I'll wave my hand with a smile on my face
When I see you miles away from me blushing
Oh how cute
You look so much more beautiful than my

I've never thought that I could be
Ridiculously in love with you
I just cant get you out of my head
My love, be my baby
I'll never let you slip away

ice skate

2009-12-25T16:45:00.002+01:00

I got excited with the message from Kak Alia asking to go ice skate.

So excited that I texted to see her at Zimni Stadion.

Then I remembered.

I'm having fever (not terrible, just rest-requiring). A bit sad but I can't risk getting worse what with exams at the start of school~

No later than 2 minutes after the message, I had to call to cancel.

Hahahaha.

I shall have to wait for recovery till the day I skate on ice again~(Next week InsyaAllah~) :D

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Oh, and a recommendation:

The Blind Side. The movie we had for the last KFC session. Based on a true story! Best best! Watch it!

winter break (finally~)

2009-12-20T00:10:00.004+01:00

What are you planning to do?

How do you intend to spend your time?

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:) Honestly am happy to get my mind off school (even for a while), cause when the mind is not attached to one thing, it can focus on another.

*Alhamdulillah*

I have planned my holidays in what I hope is a fun, super-enjoyable journey. InsyaAllah.

I have firm believe that winter holidays are meant to be spent indoors where it is warm :D.

I love nature but I love to keep all my digits too :P so, there'd not

be much venture this year!

(For those guessing what I'll be doing -> Part of the fun super-enjoyable journey involves studying. Kyaaa~ but a student has got to do what a student has to do. That's the main reason I was sent here anyway. Hehe.)

Off to set my plans into motion!

How about you?

Midnight blogging makes me hungry. Lama jugak tak buat chicken chop. Hohoho.

skip and smile~

2009-12-14T22:33:00.004+01:00

It was quite a challenge to not fall asleep and be done with preparing for the test last night so I "listened" to Madagascar: Escape to Africa. I've always enjoyed King Julian's script but yesterday, Nana's (the grandmother who could wrestle) words caught my attention.

At the moment, they were going to find a place to keep safe whilst waiting for help to arrive (their jeep was hijacked by the penguins who were trying to fix a plane) and one of the tourists ask Nana whether she knows where she was going.

And joyfully, Nana turned around and answered:

"No! But I'm going with a skip in my step, and a smile on my face!" (Swinging her arms in that Yes!-I-made-it! motion)

Staying here thought me a lot about how things don't always happen the way we expect it would.

And to do and go through things with a skip in my step and a smile on my face really helps. :)

I guess things do get better when you:

- Believe that whatever you do is with the aim of pleasing Allah.

- Have hope for His Grace, have hope for Haven

- Are grateful for the basic reason that you exist :D

- Love :)

Lets keep our hearts conscious with that huh?

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As for hobbies go, I shall wait patiently for Terry Pratchett's Unseen Academicals to be in paperback. (It's SO tempting to enter a bookstore nowadays!) And I'm deeply considering Eoin Colfer's continuation of The Hitchicker's Guide to the Galaxy, "And Another Thing". HItchicker definitely was a challenging read but Eoin Colfer's one of my favourites~

Hana said she's going to bring me to a secondhand bookstore in UK when I drop by so, for the time being, lets be patient. UK trip is just a month and a half away~ Fighting Nora! Be wise spending~

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Till next time,

Walk with a skip in your step

And a smile on your face dear friends!

Hwaiting!

i'll be back :D

2009-12-12T22:16:00.005+01:00

Yesterday reminded me why I tend to watch Harry Potter with the family and not alone.

You see, I have not watched The Half Blood Prince and after a long week of many many studying (at least in my view :P ) I started on the movie. I'm not sure where the suspense lay with the start, but I remember screaming. Hahaha. I'm very "fragile" when it comes to surprises and switching off the lights while watching a "dark" movie like Harry Potter isn't exactly the best thing to do.

I watched UP (again) instead. Animation never fails to flatter me :D

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And I had a little thought (I guess we all did) about advising patients.

If we were unhealthy doctors, leading unhealthy life... who do you think would trust our view on how to be healthy? Kyaa~

Like seriously, take care of your health. Even if you're thin, you should consider some cardiac exercises, cause unless you are tested to have normal cholesterol level, it's very likely that without exercise, you are at greater risk if you're hypercholesterolimic.

I myself am not thin and yes, this puts me at greater risk as I don't exercise. Maybe once in two weeks, which definitely ISN'T MUCH.

Dear self, please:

Skip - 50 times daily as a start

Run to class or just about anywhere (please avoid any inanimate or animate objects along the way)

Drink and don't snack at night - do not gobble down ice cream just because they taste absolutely deliciously wonderful!

It doesn't even take 2 min to skip rope. =.=

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And my hoodies have arrived :D

Will snap em' pictures soon.

It has been a very busy week with Integrated Block (whole of last week), Psychology Class (today and tomorrow) and this Monday, there's Physiology test.

:) Alhamdulillah for I was given much knowledge during the week. Lets pray the coming week will be more benificial for all of us! Yay~

(I know I haven't blogged for sometime and I sure do miss blogging. Will write some more soon!)

Getting back to reading The Lungs in Robbins.

Till later,

Salam (peace) to all. :)

be truthful

2009-12-01T20:00:00.004+01:00

Don't lie.

Cause you'll lose trust.

If you're not trustworthy, your knowledge will be hard to be acknowledged by others.

Imagine that, because of a lie, you put others in grave danger without you even realising!

My, that'll be a big problem!

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If you've ever lied, do apologise to whom you've lied to.

Repent and ask for Allah's forgiveness for He is all forgiving.

Be truthful cause it's the right thing to do.

And remember that good is not always right but right is always good.

Though sometimes truth hurts, I guess it's more painful to discover the truth hidden behind a lie.

what do i do?

2009-11-25T13:42:00.004+01:00

"Jangan sedih lama-lama sangat" Hana said.

I should bear that in mind.

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For all that has happened is the best way that it could. Alhamdulillah.

Death serves as a reminder, to appreciate what we have left of this world and use it as a supply for the ever after before eventually, our biological clock stops and it's our time to go.

Learn also that by having the chance to have loved and cared for someone, surely, although they're gone, their memories live in you. And what hopes they have for you, do your best to secure it for them :).

It's okay to be sad, it's okay to cry, there's no need to be ashamed. You're only human after all. :)

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But...

Don't forget that light shines after the rain.

And being with the living, you still have tomorrow to look forward for.

And being a living being, you could still pray for those who haven't a chance to pray anymore.

Keep running, keep going cause there's no reason to give up.

InsyaAllah all will go well :)

Have faith!

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It's been a rough week but I should anticipate tomorrow,

Nora

YUROSHIKU!

campur blog..

2009-11-20T19:31:00.004+01:00

Sarah + Wei Li-> I got your post(photo)cards!! It made my day. (Well, days, since I got em' seperately :D ) Thank you! Thank you!

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And the pharagraph after, a lil' serious...

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Death reminds the living that one day, their time will come too. And when it does, nothing could help us gain more rewards except from prayers of those living among the err.. living.

The shock of losing someone you love reminds you how grateful or simply how remarkably lucky you are to have known such a person. And if you take note to take the moral of the story, you'll come to appreciate those around you more. (And to truly appreciate any one person all the time could cost lots of effort and PATIENCE but if we did manage to be grateful, then maybe we'll have no regrets. Allah knows better.)

Dearest Grandma, Alhamdulillah, and thank you for all you've done. Peace be upon you and may you be placed among the Muttaqin. Amin.

*Al-Fatihah to my late grandmother who passed away yesterday at 1245 (Malaysia)*

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Abah was in Sabah when it happened, Alhamdulillah he chanced to have one last look of his mother before the burial. (I now know it aches very much not being able to be there.. he must have been worried not being able to see her for the last time.) We all know just how much he care about her.

Very much.

Every child is responsible to have that much (definitely more) care and love for the parents. Ever since a zygote, you've been dependent on them, and now that they need you, do stay and don't turn away!

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As of life, it has been busy :D. Alhamdulillah.

And today I had a long talk with the doctor about my recurring "asthma"/anaphylaxis. I honestly thought I was cured off it. Apparently not.

He advised that the next time I experience those moments, to go to the hospital so that they could identify just exactly which allergen is causing it. (Must be something really really rare since that was the second time I had it throughout 20 years of living)

He also mentioned, if acute, it can be life-threatening, and I should be carrying corticosteroids with me by now. Kyaaa~

*By having ample amount of illness/diseases, do you think we could relate to patients better? Probably. :) *

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I promised myself change this year (for the better of course :), what about you?) and life has been slightly above interesting lately. If I still remember what it was that makes it interesting, I'll tell you someday. :P

And I'm definitely missing the best buddies, and missing you is a good reminder as to why I should strive for success (or really, strive for what I need).

All the very best to us all. IGames tomorrow. XD

With that, peace be upon readers dearest :)

cookie monster

2009-11-11T23:18:00.001+01:00

The really really really simple butter cookie recipe :) Enjoy~

Ingredients:

250gm butter

200gm castor sugar (mouka cukr)

100gm corn flour

100gm self-raising flour (cake flour)

200gm wheat flour

1 egg

1 teaspoon vanilla essence

How to:

Beat butter and sugar till they're soft and mixed well.

Put in sifted flour (ALL OF THEM), egg and vanilla essence.

Mix ingredients well.

Roll dough to desired thickness and print your favourite shape :)

Place on baking paper and bake for 12-15 minutes at 180 degree Celcius.

Tada~

Easy and you needn't spend too much time or money.

Recipe came from my younger sister, Yasmin. She bakes the best cookies! :) Her cookies are my favourite!

*The decorating needs lotsa effort but yeah, it was really refreshing~

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A question to ask oneself :

Did you spread good knowledge today? :)