When the company you seek
Is what brings you down
You dare not blink
In case it calls you around
For days you feel sick
For nights you can not sleep
Of the you, you tried to hide
But these voices, these choices
They are mine and mine alone
And yet, it is not me
Sometimes in life, you need to know that, you are not the only one battling a problem. I know it sounds bad, to hear that somebody else screwed up too, but there is comfort in knowing that you are not alone, even if the battle is one you have to face against the man in the mirror.
For I am, but a weak creation. And I fall so easily.
And I have decided to take the path of an anesthetist, after a long consideration. I can not, for the part of me, not accept, to proceed with the career unless I have mastered the art of resuscitation. And I hope the journey I have chosen will be fruitful and make me a better person than I was yesterday. (which means, a lot of studying and asking and hands on, the latter which, Alhamdulillah, I have been given a lot of chances to do).
And I hope to do excellent.
And circumstances lead me to rediscover my little hobbies again.
Definitely better than wallowing in misery dan melayan perasaan (to think I let myself do that before this. Pfft!)