dua

Bismillah

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Dua

"Menangis lagi?"

"Ha ah. Lagu ni punya pasal."

"Lagu apa?"

"Because of You, Kelly Clarkson."

Beberapa minit kemudian.

"Awak rasa puas hati ke, kalau dapat menangis sebab lagu tu?"

"Menangis tu memuaskan, tapi, lagu tu, haha, lagu tu, bukanlah membantu pun."

"Erm, maksud awak?"

"Saya tak rasa nak mencari sebab untuk marah. Itu tema lagu tu kan. Rage. Nak tenangkan diri sebenarnya, tapi tersilap lagu. Haha."

"Boleh pulak macam tu. Maksud awak, awak ada lagu yang sesuai untuk setiap keadaan?"

"Hmm. Lagu tak pernah ada. Yang ada lirik lagu."

"Tak faham..."

"Saya rasa saya dah dengar cukup banyak lagu. Baru sekarang saya sedar, lagu-lagu tu, semuanya mengajar untuk pentingkan diri, 'akulah yang benar, orang lain semanya salah'. Yang buatkan saya tak pernah rasa puas dengan apa yang saya ada. Yang buat saya rasa satu dunia tak pernah cuba nak memahami. Haha. Delusional."

"Owh, jadi?"

"Jadi, saya tulis lirik sendiri. Untuk tenangkan diri."

"Nak tengok boleh, those lyrics?"

"Tak boleh."

"Apasal?"

"Tu macam security breach. Kalau Freud cakap dream is window to the subconscious, to me lyrics is like a window to my everything. Rasa terancam. If the danger has passed, then, maybe, insyaAllah, satu hari nanti, saya kongsi."

Tiada respon.

"Okaylah, yang ini, boleh kot"

Song of Patience

V1:
She worries about later,
As later becomes,
A little too late.

She worries about the other,
And it all amounts,
To things too great.

Too great,
For her fist-sized heart.

Pre chorus:
But she told me

C:
Good things come, 
To those who wait.

Good things come, 
To those who wait. 

V2:
She dreams about a future,
Bids goodbye,
To all of her fears.

She dreams that one day,
She'll be there for sure,
Where she was meant to be.

Where I can be me.

Pre chorus:
Cause she said

C:
Good things come,
To those who wait.

Good things come,
To those who wait. 

Bridge:
For I was taught to love,
Love, everything given to me :)
That the best thing is in store,
For those who wait.

Pre chorus:
And I know

C:
Good things come,
To those who wait.

Good things come,
To those who wait. 

"So, savvy?"

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Writing, in the Malay language specifically, reminds me of Diyana. 
It reminds me a whole deal of that wonderful girl. 

Nora