Monday, December 31, 2012

pillowtalk

We finally talked about it.

I don't know where the road would go from now, but I'm glad we finally did have that conversation.

Thank God.

Because opening up is the first step to be strong.

And when you're strong enough, He'll let you be vulnerable.
(don't ask how I came to this, because I guess, the way Islam speaks to me may be different. So long as I go by the Quran and Sunnah, aite? :) )

To a sister, I love dearly, Farhana.
The best elder sister ever. (Okay, that's a bit vague seeing as how you're the only older sister I have :P Haha!) I hope Allah would ease what is best for you. And that you be happy. And that you attained more than you've ever dreamed you would, in this life, and the hereafter. Uri eonni saranghae! ^^

 When we were younger, Hana has her baju kurung with proper sarong, and mine was with pants because since childhood, she has always been ladylike and grace never has been my forte. This time, maybe the parents thought I would behave better in sarong. Though I can't help but notice I have a kite in my hands.

 See, Hana so sopan and I'm always with the epic face. Hohoho.

Sopan sikit.

We were at Niagara Falls (a place I recommend everyone to visit!). 
When I think of it, if anyone has a somewhat "ganas" daughter, they should buy their daughters skirts and dresses at young age. It curbed the want to make silly poses a lil'. Haha!


Hana said I looked like Sivaji boss (?) and I think I'll watch Sivaji tonight cause I need to know why. Haha. 

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Everyone lives life at their own pace. There are things we can't afford to make priority but that doesn't make us wrong. :)

Okay Hana, jom terus berusaha dan berdoa! Fight oh~

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I so need a proper siblings pillowtalk. One week of holiday till I go all out with studying.

Hope the package arrives timely. :) 

figuratively flo

I got to know this girl when we were doing A Levels in KTT. 

:) 

We tend to have a lot to talk about. 

Which brought us to come up with a 10 000 spoken words quota per day. (not that we ever counted, but after spending a day together, we'd decide to limit the talking)

Here's a post to one of my intelligent conversationalist. 

I'm really really thankful that we're friends. 
Alhamdulillah (thank God). 


Saturday, December 29, 2012

on love and being grateful

There are things of this world that prevent us asking for more, however our hearts and minds think we should.

It is not easily fathomable, but sometimes, a mere existence can lead to triumphing the day.

Cause knowing some people bring me closer to God.

In ways I could never have imagined.
(Maybe it wouldn't work any other way because my mind and soul has been lead to believe they need more keys for them to be unlocked and opened. God knows.)

And for that, loving you is a privilege.

Summing it up, I want you to be happy.

As of now, I feel that is all I could ask for.

And for that, I'll be grateful, insyaAllah.

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Thank you Thamarai for hosting an Indian chicken beriyani dinner tonight :) It was fun learning to cook beriyani! And it is very sweet of you to get all the Halal ingredients and cook a delicious meal for us!

Hope to get the recipe soon, I'll share it on the blog. :) Cause it was really really nice!

Thanks Syamee and Yushah for walking me home. :D Very thoughtful of you both!

 Layering the "Dum Beriyani". Laden with wholesome goodness! ^^

After scooping and mixing. Jyeah~ 

Come finishing med school, this blog will be evidence. Of how I actually, do cook, contrary to a misguided belief of dear parents. 

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Thank you Kak Alia and Ustaz, for accompanying the trip to Vackov. It was a short, but memorable experience we had. If I wanna sign up for more, then I could ask for your help again, kan? ;) Kekeke


This break seems to result in more energy expenditure. Hehe. I don't recall a proper chillax-ing yet.
Tapi, masa lapang itu, pembunuh pemuda.
So, Alhamdulillah.
This break, part of me lives.

:)

Thursday, December 27, 2012

smile :)

Lets not complicate things.
Lets be happy.

Worrying kills.
And to be merciful is to be at peace.

Peace y'all~ :D

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Ohkay lets work on the life plan.

Every year we have this "Program Maju Diri" thing at home. And the funny thing is, every year, although Abah has prepared materials for us, he would end up talking about the same thing. Haha.

It was partly our fault, for not taking things seriously the years before. The thing we enjoyed most about the program was the food and camwhoring and rewards. It's funny how we would crack our brain trying to think up an answer to his questions. Semua nak menang. "Me! Me! I raised my hands first!!!!!" :P

This summer, maybe cause my brothers are smarter, we had some brainstorming done. On how to get as much reward (read: pahala) from God as possible. And we were told to think up the idea separately, no one could cheat anyway, we were given very little time. :O I was surprised at the outcome. Boleh tahan hebat adik-adik aku.

And a lil' token was kept in the form of videos. Hana couldn't make it to the program, she had a meeting or summat. And we were told to make some poem/dialogue/anything, that, if we tell Hana, would immediately trigger her to treat us Pappa Rich :P And the result came as a surprise too. Mama couldn't participate because hers was a sure win. Being a parent gives an edge when it comes to asking things from a working child. Kekeke.

This year, Kak Liyana joined us actually. And next year, if there's time, I assume we will have another one. After which I won't be able to participate because of work. :( That'll be the last pre-adult preparation I guess.

Anyway, I think I need to seriously act on the stuffs taught to us. Organizing has never been my forte but to be an adult, I have to do it. Aigoo~

Thank you parents, for making up the time we've lost with these programs. :) Hope to repay you in some way, someday. It'll never amount to the sacrifices you've made, but yeah, some way, someday.

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I've finally made a proper Pavlova! :D Thanks for the lesson Syamee!
Those interested, here's a link to a reliable recipe.

 Whipped meringue 

 After being baked in an oven pre-heated at 180 C, later switched to 150 C right before putting in the meringue. Bake for about 30 minutes then let cool. :) 

The shell was crunchy, and the inside, a marshmallow consistency. Woot2~ Serve with whipped cream, fruits and ice cream!!! :D

:) 

part two

"Just tell me how to stop it.
Stop what?
Seeing it. 
How do you stop seeing it?
There is so much pain and I don't know how to not notice it."

There are things you wish you never remembered.
I mean, they don't, but why must it be etched on my enchepalon?

I've been trying to get an answer for that.
For what seems like a long time.

You can't choose where you come from.
But you can choose where to go from there.
Atm, I just feel that I'm not fit to be vulnerable.

2:216
Allah knows what you do not know.

I'll know why when the time comes.
Lets not think too much about it, kay?
God is good.

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Anyway, here's the continuation from previous book review.

I wanted to write on love because it was highlighted so many times. Not just boy-girl relationship, but the parent-child, friend-friend etc.

Then I realised that, what I really wanted to talk about was mercy because what the characters portray was more than a simple I'm-attracted-to-you-kind-of-feel.

For mercy includes love, sacrifice, tolerance, compassion, forgiveness and generosity. Phew~ If we all have mercy, then maybe a lot of relationships could be saved, no?

The part that touches me most was when Dad comforted Hazel. "I'm sorry Gus died.......But it was sure a privilege to love him, huh?"  I (Hazel) nodded into his shirt. "Gives you an idea how I feel about you," he said.

It was an obvious statement that needed to be spelt out for her. Because she was so busy loving others that when they're gone, she doesn't realise that there are those, living, who loves her just as much.

It's still a wonder for me, the chemicals of how feelings work. It's not something you can tell your heart not to do. It's a privilege. And somehow, even a heartbreak would not revoke the privilege status.

That's that. Still, being merciful is of more importance, for love could only get you so far. How to be merciful? That, I shall have to read more before finding out. :P

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In all honesty, I miss home very much. :(
Then I think of how I have about 7 months minimally left to live in Prague, and I start missing Prague.

Thanks to a person who had helped me understand my complex self, discover wounds and directing my mind to find solutions instead. I never knew the road of discovery could be, besides rewarding, very nauseating. Haha.

Alhamdulillah for that small venture.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

side effects of dying

The Fault In Our Stars.

Is a book by John Green, on the life of ill (because you could be a cancer patient, and not be ill) cancer patients.

What interested me most was the term "side-effects-of-dying". And the truth it holds. That when you know that your time is limited in this world, you do things you'd never dream of doing in times of health.
That hardships, do age you, spiritually and emotionally.

The Holy Prophet has mentioned in a Hadith:
"Clever is the one who prepares for life after death

Sadly, most of us always, always think that we have all the time in this world, just because we're not diagnosed with a terminal disease. :( hai manusia lemah~ hai manusia lalai~ bodohlah!
We cease to function, cease to take an active, responsible part in our lives. :(

Gosh, I feel depressed reading that. Haha. Anyway, lets try taking that in a different approach.

By looking at things as "side-effects-of-hardships" instead of the "side-effects-of-dying" :)

Someone told me that, any form of hardships (health, money, losing a loved one, failing an exam, divorce etc) are actually tools to better our iman. *Then again, nothing could compete with death*

I don't know about you, but a pattern I seem to experience is that, if I'm taking the wrong approach, Allah will test me with the same tests, until, one fine day, usually after sincerely wanting to end/pass the test, He would make me see the obvious, and tada~ one challenge over and another test comes :)

Which I find really helpful for me because I'm so experimental in some things that I would not learn unless I experience them first hand. (Like how I learnt in primary school, after an attempt at main masak-masak, that kerosene, even in small amounts, can make a bonfire out of very little amount of dry leaves. Mama if you're reading this and you found out about this for the first time, marilah kita sama-sama panjatkan kesyukuran. :) )

Anyway, concluding the first part, death/hardships serve as a reminder, for us to return to Him, to ask for His guidance. For us to remember that, He made this world a wretched place so our hearts won't be tied to it. So our hearts will desire the Hereafter, with all its perfection and beauty. And that really, do work on the akhirah, for God knows it'll do you good.

And the next part will be posted later because I'm sleepy. Haha.

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Thanks friend for recommending the book. Besides the awkward scene, the book was a fine read. :)

And thanks to a circle of friends whom I owe a lot, for they care so much about me. Would it not be for you guys welcoming me, I may very well be in a rut, destroying my very existence. Thank you for acknowledging me for who I am, thank you for recognising the good in me, and help me work on my weaknesses.

Thank You, for saving me.

Note: If ever, you have a child who is similar in nature as I am, don't leave kerosene lying around the backyard. Nor let your child watch Home Alone 2 without explaining that really, the filming was done under strict control, and all those acts could result in serious injuries if performed inexpertly.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

hello holidays!!!

:D Christmas and New Year break is here!
Happy holidays~ Woot2~

So many things planned, hope they'll work out :D hee~
Whatever it is, marilah bersama-sama betulkan niat.
Then things won't go to waste :)

Oh, and the most important thing to do this break: plan your year, rejuvenate and cleanse your body and soul.
Because after this, it's studying and exams (it has always been) WITHOUT any breaks till summer. Kyaaa~ Seeing as how our seniors survived this challenge, then, insyaAllah we will too!

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I have a book review pending. And I think I need to sort out my reading materials. And probably my focus too. Because yesterday I was tested with knowledge, and I think I failed horribly. Yikes~

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Thanksies today goes to someone whom I didn't know existed before. :) May Allah bless, and thank you for the reminders! (in case I forgot, cause I might, the hint: rehat tunggu mati. kau ada?)

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

distanced

Perasaan tertanya-tanya ini.
Sebab aku jauh kan?
Jiwa, tolong.
Tolong jangan mati.

runnnn

"It is the ancient instinct of terriers and policemen to chase anything that runs away"
TP

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You know sometimes, you tweet or write comments, and when said comments may trigger reader to run after you, so you add, *lari* or *runs away* at the end of your sentence?

Okay, so maybe you don't write such thing, but I do. :P

And one fine day, I commented on Syafiq's photo of Ijad smoking. :O So I asked the fundamental question, "bila nak berenti?" *lariiiiii*. (My sisters and I kinda have this smoking cessation obsession thing, but we are really concerned about your health cousins! :) That's why we'll keep asking, cause we believe you'll make it one day. Apis is making progress, having a child gives more reason to do it I guess).

Maybe Abang Syafiq realised it was meant for him jugak. And being a cop, he replied "kejarrr!!!"
Hahahahahahaha. *cue Gerak Khas soundtrack*
It was funny cause he's a policeman and I don't recall anyone wanting to run after people in comments before. :D :D :D
*Duh, berapa ramai je orang yang lari-lari dalam comments pun*

Apa motif tulis? Untuk membenarkan statement Sir TP.

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I wanted to write a book, to send a message, but I may have to develop observing skills and truly caring for others. That way, I won't send the wrong message. Eep~

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Thank You, to have met me with wonderful people in my life. :) It's truly a blessing to have large families (about 40 cousins on my father's side of the family and around 30 on mama's) because then, you sorta get the whole bell's curve of characters. From one extreme to the next. Which is an interesting thing, because we watch each other grow and eventually develop into distinct beings.

And because of that, when we meet up, we get to be children again, relax a little from our busy lives. :) Hee~

Baguslah dekat Malaysia kita tinggal berdekatan aje, kan? :)

*Yasmin put up an album of kisah dulu-dulu, how timely ;)*

Setelah penat bermain

Middle child syndrome. And then, there's Manje and Khalil.
Love,
Nora

Monday, December 17, 2012

aku, mereka dan karipap

So Medsoc (student body of my university) held an international food fair, and guess who decided to cook.
:) I opted to make karipap and in return, got three people to help me out. It still surprises me that it happened because jarang-jarang orang nak volunteer ni. Kekeke. *beware, dramatic post ahead*

Actors and actress.
Me.
One son of a karipap expert.
One who made karipap before.
And one who had many ideas about how to make a good dish. 

And I had to write this down, because honestly, I thought, after dealing with many people, I realised how little control I have, over my life. Overly uptight. >.< kyaaa~ I hope writing would help make me more aware of what I'm thinking, feeling and doing. 

The dough, the filling, the folding all went well. :) Well, the second dough was a lil' on the softer side, so it was quite a task to prepare that one :P but thank God, we made it somehow.

For the sake of health and the limited time we had, we decided to cook the karipaps in the oven. Then the catastrophe (at least that's how I see it) occurred. 
Somehow, they didn't brown as expected, and the filling inside got somewhat burnt. :O :O :O 
I was one batch too late to realise that the karipaps I made before were with sardine filling, not curry, so I hadn't any problem cooking them in the oven before. 
Honestly, I never ever thought of this possibility. THE HORROR! In other word, it was a failure. Presentation and taste-wise. And that stoned me for quite a while. 

Then, panic. Hahaha. Macam mana nak kasi orang makan karipap kalau tak sedap????? Dahlah karipap macam anaemic. T_T *sesungguhnya, I panicked to the point that there wasn't any photo of the karipap at all* 

I was in denial for a few minutes. Questioning my failure status. If this were an individual task, I may very well draw out from the food fair but that wasn't a valid option. 
I tried calming myself with the mantra "Aku nak jadi doktor, bukan tukang masak, so takpe kalau lacking pun". And you guys also tried to tell me it was okay. "Untuk standard budak medic, boleh lah". *in all honesty, that actually scared me more*  

Which eventually lead to us frying the karipaps in the end. 
I believe I was still lost that time, almost burnt the karipap, yet again. "Zizi! Think, think!

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Ohkay, so the drama ended and I'm much calmer now. Thank God. :) It was a rather weird but definitely building experience. Ejai told me, I have to tone down when it comes to accepting criticism. I realised this problem a long time ago. And yes, I could improve on my karipap. :) 
Bak kata Abah, "just because you had an accident, it doesn't mean you should stop cycling" when Luqman crushed his humeral condyles because of a bicycle ride. 
Yes, we could improve. 

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I know I thanked you people for participating already, but ini adalah a black ant on a black rock in the dark of the night:

Thanks Faliq, for the honest comments. Do share the fantabulous recipe you know with the rest of us! Nak rasa jugak karipap super sedap! :)
Thanks Wafy, for keeping calm through the storm and cleaning up after the mess, physically and psychologically. :D
And thank you both for taking over when I was "lost". ie daripada siap masak first batch dalam oven sampailah after the food fair ended. 
Thanks Syamira, for accompanying and helping out and proof photos. 
Thanks Beyo, for coming to help and the nasi impit kuah kacang.  
Thanks Ejai and As, for the space :P.
The karipaps may not have journeyed to the Hall without the myriad of help from you people.  
May Allah bless you people, and that when you need help, He'll ease it for you.

For the adventure,
Alhamdulillah.

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Owh and another update, :) Alhamdulillah, one more exam done, another 6 to go before ending school.
And a whole lot of self improvement to go with before I die. 

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

peter pan generation

An article on "adultescent". Click to read. :)
Chee Ching posted it on FB, and after reading it, I thought, this is so familiar. HAHAHA XD

Honestly, when I read her article, I realised that I'm reaching the adultescent pool soon. And it's scary because like her, I have ideas too, but the amount of work put on it? Nil. Or in fact, very little. :(

It is hard to believe that you have to be an adult. A stage which inevitably, we all have to survive. Someday, somehow. *there, even the way I say it seem to mean that I don't really think I will have to become one*

Tapi Abah and Mama cakap they'd move to Sarawak if need be, ie if I end up working there. :) Hee~ *cue flowers sprouting everywhere, an effect of atmosphere laden with happiness* So nice of them to accommodate us before we get a more stable grip on our career.

But yeah, have to figure out how many years to come before I start contributing and stop leeching (they won't mind if we NEED to get their help, just that, they've done so much for us. And we're not getting any younger).

Then, there are the other things too. Man, I really have to be an adult eyh.

Quoting Nanny Ogg or Mistress Weatherwax (I can't recall which witch exactly), "***? She always puts them for later, and then, later was too late".

It was a good read but I need to study now.

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Thanks for posting up the article Chingy!
Thank you parents for not questioning us yet. And for the support.

Sunday, December 09, 2012

hadir sudah

It snowed this evening and it's the type that doesn't melt~
Subhanallah ^^ kekeke.


I is uber happy right now :D
I'd be happier if it piles up MORE and doesn't melt tomorrow, because I'm going to put on the waterproof gloves.
And attack classmates and whomever I know. HAHAHA.
*biasanya kalau pasang niat macam ni, snow tu melt terus, tapi tidak mengapa, sebab hari-hari snow akan tiba lagi InsyaAllah ;)*

SNOW FIGHTS ARE FUN THOUGH! KYAAAA~~~

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Alhamdulillah for the experience.
And thank you friends who put up with the inner child when it comes to playing in the snow :D 

Friday, December 07, 2012

summing up

Sara said she could get the Speculoos.
:D :D :D :D :D

Thank God~

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Yesterday the light in my room got fixed. And now the room is brighter than ever! :D *harus lebih rajin*

And today the plumber ahjussis came. :) Alhamdulillah, the blockade has been fixed!

We questioned a few things today. And the conclusion was, insyaAllah my house won't be broken (literally) in future.

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What prevented an apt response was an exam.

Quoting Sir TP:
The phrase "someone ought to do something" was not, by itself, a helpful one. People who used it never added "and that someone is me".

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And thanksies today to those helping me lighten my work. Semoga Allah rahmati usaha ini. Korang, fighting! ^^

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

for the love of food

Durian crepe.
Memang tak munasabah.
Gila (kalau aku buat jugak).
Makan "mewah" sangat, bahaya, kan?
Tak bagus untuk jiwa.
Walaubagaimanapun, aku dah bookmark page resipi dia. Click!
Tapi kat Malaysia jatuh "tak mewah" sebab dapat durian free dari dusun Atok.
Dan bila dah naik taraf pandai cari pangsa dan kupas durian tanpa cederakan telapak tangan, memang musim durian yang melanda tanah air, akan membuatkan nafsu memberontak.

Jika ditakdirkan juadah ini wujud dekat Bumi Czech ni, marilah kita salahkan Akiey dan Alia (Olo).

Aku patut kawal aktiviti melayari post-post berunsur makanan.
Goyah.

Tak mewah kat sini. Kalau buat egg tart. Atau chicken chop.
Woo hoo~ Marilah makan sedap sambil berjimat you olls~

Gila doyan, bukan meroyan,
Cucu Jejaka Macho

Monday, December 03, 2012

johnny and the dead

Is a book by Sir TP. I didn't read the book though. I watched the telemovie. (ie movies shown on television, not the cinema). The cinematography wasn't good (it was filmed in the early 90s) but I guess when you have a good storyline, it doesn't matter. Owh budak kecik yang jadi Johnny tu nampak macam Joseph Gordon Levitt. Tetiba tulisan jadi kecil. Hahaha. Mengong. 

I haven't much time to write the summary, I guess anyone interested could Google "Johnny and The Dead" up. 

What I learnt from the movies was, sometimes, you do things, because you're the only one who could. And though you have set plans and goals, it's most likely that things won't exactly turn out the way you plan it to be. That people might come to you for help, only later, realising that they don't actually need it. 

Which might make you feel a little low. Cause you start questioning all the things you've done. Which of course, in actual fact, did not go to waste. Because it's through hardships that you learn about your value, principle and belief. And by working for what you believe in, you sharpen your skills a little. Your character gets more refined. That really, there's no harm in striving for what's right. 

And like always, Sir TP's view on the system was highlighted in a subtle yet thought invoking manner. 
If I watched this in primary school, I would have talked about the living dead. "I'm not a ghost, I'm just dead. And I don't believe in those stupid metaphysical rubbish."
If I watched this is high school or college, I would have talked about his word puns. "Owh Albert Einstein? He's a distant cousin. Relatively speaking, of course." Hahaha. 

And now I came to realised that most of his books goes along the line that, you are one person, but one good, honest person, can make a difference in this wretched world.

And because I read so many of his books, I came to the conclusion that, that one person, exists in many forms. A good cop. An honest banker. A dedicated parent. A good healer. :) It could be me. It could be you. So go on, get out of your comfort zone a little, and lets do our part, into making today, a past we won't regret.

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Thank you Allah, for making me an avid reader. Thank you Florence for introducing me to this awesome author. I remember you lending me the first book, believing that I have "good command" in English. And Sarah for being a partner in becoming Sir TP's fan. I've been getting his books on hardcover lately. Can't stop myself XD 

And a question that bugs me,
To Kindle, or not to Kindle?

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My entries seem to get longer these days. To not burden the page with too many words, lets have a food photo spam. Jyeah!!!


Beef Pie, inspired by Sorted on Youtube.


Beef pie when cut. Failed to laden the pie stuffing with gravy though XD Have to try it again someday. Cause I promised someone to. :) Now that I think of it, I've never cooked for you and your friends before! Aiyark~


Korean Pancake with seafood. Sebab kempunan di suatu petang yang ditemani hujan dan sejuk. And next attempt would be with chives. I bought a pot of fresh chives for that. Sebab chives yang lain tu dari Israel, and lagi mahal pun. :P


Dinner :D It was a Facebook trigger, cause some juniors made spicy rice cake, but since I had that when Kirin came the last time, makanya, I decided to make rice cake soup! With lotsa beef. Aku suka betul makan daging, takpe aku anaemic.


This is what happen when you separate the egg yolk and white, then fry them and cut them into strips. Did you know, preparing Korean food is actually a tedious job? Tapi sedaplah. 


Ta da~ Throwing the egg strips. Om nom nom~

Ohkay then. Bagi yang tetiba lapar, selamat memasak! :D Heee~~~

Sunday, December 02, 2012

keperluan asas

A video on diffusion of responsibility/bystander effect/Genovese syndrome, has gone viral.
If you haven't watch it already, do click here. :) Tengoklah, you know you want to. 

Pertaining to the study given, through the story of Kitty Genovese, I was brought to remember a rather more disappointing version of the story. 

Kisah bermula... 

There're times when you simply had to go back a lil' later in the night. Be it committee meetings, study groups etc. And in my early days as a student here, I came to meet that night. So I asked for friends help to send me home. I thought logically, budak-budak lelaki sedarlah kepentingan sejagat tu. Itu pasal dengan selambanya I asked for help. For I remembered last time, Abah and Uncle Rashid (Abah's colleague 1) had to hantar Auntie Noran (Abah's colleague 2) back home because a meeting ended late and Uncle F-something (Auntie Noran's husband) cannot pick her up. 
Anyway, after some persuasion, on the way back, I was thanking my friends, when one of them said something I can't quite forget until now. 
"Aku bukannya nak hantar pun, tapi kalau aku tak hantar nanti orang marah" 
*drama queen 1: berhenti tengah jalan dengan riak wajah skeptikal* Adoi. Seriously, a certain level of trust dropped down dramatically that time. I mean, korang seriously tak sedar kebesaran amal menghantar orang-yang-mungkin-akan-hadapi-bahaya-dalam-perjalanan? (Silalah terasa kaw-kaw punya sampai lepas ni korang nak jadi Superhero, memastikan tak de orang teraniaya, tak kisahlah sebab tersepit dekat pintu bas ke, sebab tertinggal phone ke [rujuk video] atau sebab-sebab lain yang menggugat status kemanusian mana-mana manusia [atau alam, really])

Sadly after that, I quit requesting to be sent back. In fact I remembered running so that they couldn't catch up. *drama queen 2: lari turun tangga laju-laju* Why do something when it's as if, you're cursing that person for being a liability? 
Ok lah, I shouldn't have ran, maybe you guys repented after that, huh? 
Tapi seriously, blurting out the kind of sentences that make it seems like perempuan itu burden adalah so not cool. Which basically makes anyone a jerk in our eyes. 

Lepas kejadian tersebut juga, meeting CzeMSA pun aku tak sanggup nak minta tolong budak lelaki dah, sebab aku rasa, kalau korang ni betul fahamlah, korang tak perlu ditanya pun. (Sekarang aku sedar, aku sepatutnya tanya je) Mungkin aku sangat alergik dengan kata-kata berbaur "perempuan menyusahkan". Aiyark~ Adik-adik aku pun lagi bertanggungjawab, jaga kitorang bila main basikal, badminton, basket, pergi shopping, park kereta etc. Dan mereka ada kesedaran ni awal sekolah menengah lagi. Serius korang tak pernah diamanahkan untuk menjadi bodyguard nenek/mak/kakak/adik perempuan korang sendiri? *kalau tak pernah, silakanlah, sebelum korang sampai kepada satu waktu yang korang tak dapat nak jaga bini/anak perempuan sendiri. kalau pernah, Y U no use same concept?*

HOWEVER, HIDUP DI PRAGUE NI TAKDELAH GERSANG ALL THE TIME. ADA JE ORANG YANG SANGAT-SANGAT BERKESEDARAN TINGGI DALAM HAL-HAL EHWAL KEMANUSIAAN MACAM NI. 
Kudos to D, H, S, B. (Ha apa lagi, tekalah initials ni! :P)

Coming back to the introduction, why I thought this story is disappointing, because, I too was affected by the diffusion of responsibility. Just because it's something that no one stresses on, I too, acted by not stressing its importance, which, thank God, has not cause any harm in the time when I assume it was a very light matter. :( Apelah :( Kalau it's for the greater good, kenapa tidak? :(



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Alhamdulillah, it is A LITTLE irrelevant now that KFC has come out with a "Skuad Peneman". 
To those who don't already know, KFC stands for Keluarga-Fan-Club (a substitute to the term "usrah" yang kebanyakan ahli KFC agak alergik). KFC terdiri daripada Kak Alia, Syamira, Anis, Ejai, Pia and me. And seeing as how it gets darker, earlier right now, because it's winter and we're living in the Northern Hemisphere, we now have a "Skuad Peneman" (Accompanying Squad) so that non of our members will have to dwell the roads of Prague alone when it gets dark. (Y) 

Secara peribadi, aku sangat suka konsep ni, dan memandangkan semua orang pun ada circle of friends tersendiri, skuad ni, bolehlah ditubuhkan mengikut keperluan masing-masing. 
*baca ayat lepas ni dengan mood AGM*
Kerana melihatkan kepada statistik, memandangkan bilangan pelajar lelaki yang dihantar semakin berkurang, dan mungkin keperluan sejagat ini akan memakan masa dan tenaga mereka, ini akhirnya tidak lain tidak bukan, menzalimi mereka (quote: usul pembubaran CzeMSA. kekeke).

Don't get me wrong, we still need good guys (aku rasa budak Prague ni baik je, cuma kurang matang/berpengalaman). Ini cuma tindakan kami untuk mengurangkan kemudharatan. We still need good guys, for there're many circumstances that is out of our control. Because, number one, being women, generally, our awareness of surrounding is lesser. And two, we are no match to the strength God has blessed you all with. (There're more, but, you get the picture). 
  
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The brothers :D Walaupun most of the time korang annoying, tapi terharu I dengan kematangan korang. Hahaha.

So thanksies today goes out to KFC atas kerjasama untuk misi-misi skuad peneman yang telah berjaya diadakan. Semoga Allah berkati usaha ini dan kita semua sentiasa berada dalam perlindunganNya. 

And also initials-initials yang terpampang di atas. Reason paling best aku pernah dengar bila aku tengah skeptik asal-korang-nak-hantar-balik adalah"Aku pun ada kakak dowh" 
Terima kasih korang, for working on that kesedaran, semoga Allah melindungi korang dan saudara-saudara perempuan korang.