Tuesday, November 30, 2010

15 years

O Allah, thank you. :')


For making it bearable.


Having to survive through it.


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Always pray for a happy ending.


No matter how far it may seem from reach.


Pray for the best.


Pray that He ease what is best.


For you.


For me.


For us.


For all of us.


^^


Salam

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

what happened to calming down?

I unnecessarily flung my professor's file and an enveloped document today.
I'm amazed at how immersed I got when answering her question.


I answered, whilst expanding my arms, "It is..." 
BANG! 
And everything on the counter drops.   


"OH!! I'm SOOOOOO SORRY!"


>.< wanting to hide face, but I wasn't even at the second question yet! Ha!


Yeah, trust my body to act on its free will at grave times such as an exam. :P 
Alhamdulillah cikgu tak marah or anything of the sort! Heee~ ^^


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Today is stochastic :D



Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I was reminded that some people can be really mean.
And the effect of that being mean can be really painful.


I too can be mean at times.
I hope I realise I was being mean.
Then I could apologise.


Before it is too late.


I'm sorry! Prominte! Minta maaf! 


Anyway, speaking of pain, have you ever felt pseudo angina pectoris? Hehe. I'm recalling some moment in time when I watched some really sad drama (or movie, I can't remember) and my heart and hand hurts so badly. I'm making it sound serious, am I not? Hehe. Chill~ 


The heart is such a fragile little thing. I wish to keep it nourished, with lotsa good things and lotsa happiness ^^ 
Yeah. Lets do just that!
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Someone told me I look my age. :) (: Yay!
*the dramatic self twirls*


Ohkay then, chop! chop! Off to nerding~ Wow weeeeee~


Salam everyone!

Friday, November 19, 2010

raya haji ^^

Eid mubarak! :)


This year, we learned a bit of history.


And the difference between sumbangan (contribution) and pengorbanan (sacrifice).


And Abah MMSed me a photo. To which I couldn't MMS back cause I didn't activate my MMS function. Ha! I thought I was really behind technology and that I needed a new phone. (Guess this one will do for a really long time!)




I thought that Puan, Tuan, En Muzambli, Kak Ida, Mikail and Iman totally made it like a kampung raya. It's like having your aunties and uncles and little cousins (and the many many "cousins" i.e. other students!)


Thanks Kak Alia + husband, Kak Sharifah, Kak Adilah and Aqilah for the treat! ^^ It sure made the week more interesting and meaningful! 


Alhamdulillah ^^


Photos credit: Abah, Kak Syamira

Thursday, November 11, 2010

i miss you so

Alhamdulillah.


That me and you, we are in speaking term again. 


Of course it means a lot to me.




Before that phone call


Life has been hectic


I haven't the time to reminisce


That farewell we choose to miss.




In the midst of the hustle,


Sadly,


My heart would weep


Everytime I see on the street


Child and father


Walk hand in hand


Say words of goodbye


Carrying her little bag


Heh


Father and child




Jealousy :P


Did I mentioned, how happy I am,


Now that we are talking again?


Alhamdulillah ^^




I wanna kidnap Hazim's (junior) cat for a day but Mama said I should refrain from getting too friendly with furry beings. (retort: I survived just fine~)


I am missing Prince Ellie. :'(
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I hope to be able to settle exams well. 


Then I can really contribute at home.


Have a proper holiday.


As a daughter, sister, friend, cousin etc.




Ohkay! Back to work work work~

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

november already

Salam all ^^ how have you been? 
Good? Alhamdulillah.
Not good? Alhamdulillah, and insyaAllah, lets pray for better moments in life to come. 


Tonight, I am indulging Old Town White Coffee with music put on at really slow volume and on the medical student level, reading and writing cardiovascular pharmacology.


This came last week ^^ Wee~ 
I know I should reduce my 3in1 consumption, probably not on the ones which have just arrived. :P Because I love coffee so so much! And it's OLD TOWN WHITE COFFEE kot! Haha!


As for putting on music at the-lowest-possible-volume-my-ear-could-detect, it's a training to make my ear more sensitive to sounds. Maybe I could auscultate better that way? Who knows? 
Lup-whooosh
Whoooosh-Dub 
:P


One thing for sure, head-banging-dance songs are much more tolerable this way. ^^ 


We have a test coming for Pharmaco. On CVS. I still have 5 questions to draft out :P 
CVS pharmaco is much more acceptable when Prof Natasa (Natasha) told us to list them drugs nicely in a schedule. 
It made clear the difference of the groups of drug that work to give the same effect (well, almost the same effect). 
She is one intelligent woman! 
*googles intelligent*


Intelligent, bright, brilliant, knowing, quick witted, smart, intellectual. 
The difference?


These adjectives mean having or showing mental keenness. Intelligentusually implies the ability to cope with new problems and to use the power of reasoning and inference effectively: The intelligent math students excelled in calculus. Bright implies quickness or ease in learning: The bright child learned the alphabet quickly. Brilliant suggests unusually impressive mental acuteness: "The dullard's envy of brilliant men is always assuaged by the suspicion that they will come to a bad end" (Max Beerbohm). Knowingimplies the possession of knowledge, information, or understanding:Knowing collectors bought all the auctioned paintings. Quick-wittedsuggests mental alertness and prompt response: The quick-witted emergency medical staff averted a tragedy. Smart refers to quick intelligence and often a ready capability for taking care of one's own interests:Smart lawyers can effectively manipulate juries. Intellectual implies the capacity to grasp difficult or abstract concepts: Dinner at the philosopher's house was noted for its intellectual conversations. 


credit: education.yahoo and Prof Payne for telling me those wonderful explanation of intelligent :D


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My younger sister, Min is taking her SAM exam now (this week and next). :) Lets all pray for her success eyh?
Thanks!

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